Disclaimer- I don't own glee
A/N- So I was re-watching season 4 of Glee because I miss all the old character especially Quinn and Puck. So, I decided to write a little one shot (Maybe more) From the episode 'I Kissed a Girl'. So here goes!
I Played With Your Heart
PUCKS POV
"Please baby can't you see My mind's a burnin' hell I got razors a rippin' and tearin' and strippin' My heart apart as well Tonight you told me That you ache for something new And some other woman is lookin' like something That might be good for you Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone Go on believe her when she tells you Nothing's wrong" I sang with a smirk playing at the corner of his lips. Our assignment this week was lady music to support Santana and her supposedly being a lesbian. I honestly think it was a faze, but whatever. I kept singing my eyes floating around the room but gravitating to Ms. C. God she was so hot.
"But I'm the only one Who'll walk across the fire for you I'm the only one Who'll drown in my desire for you It's only fear that makes you run The demons that you're hiding from When all your promises are gone I'm the only one. Please baby can't you see I'm trying to explain I've been here before and I'm locking the door And I'm not going back again" I sang to Quinn on this part, or at least I tried but again, my eyes kept shifting towards Shelby. I noticed though from the corner of my eyes that Quinn was giving me a funny look. I made it to the middle of the room again so that I could try to look at everyone else to finish my amazing song.
"Her eyes and arms and skin won't make It go away You'll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrow That holds you down today Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone Go on believe her when she tells you Nothing's wrong But I'm the only one Who'll walk across the fire for you I'm the only one Who'll drown in my desire for you It's only fear that makes you run The demons that you're hiding from When all your promises are gone I'm the only one" I finished and looked around at the amazed faces. I knew I rocked it, but it was always nice to see the looks on other people's faces.
"That was for you" I smiled pointing my guitar at Shelby. 'Why did I say that!?' I mentally kicked myself, "Santana" I added. Everyone else clapped enthusiastically. Except Quinn, she seemed hesitant. I got nervous. Quinn knows me better than anyone, she could figure this out... then again she's really self involved so maybe she was just wondering why I didn't sing to her.
The bell rang and I headed to my locker as quickly as I could. I needed to get out of the room, away from the entire group of New Directions. I was quickly getting things into my bag, ready to leave school when I heard footsteps walk up and stop right at my locker door. I looked up to see Quinn standing above me. 'Damn'
"So that song you sang was amazing" She stated crossing her arms across her chest.
"Thank you?" I raised an eyebrow wondering what was going to happen. What was going on in that pretty little head of hers?
"Only problem is I think you need to have your eyes checked," She uncrossed her arms and placed a hand on the top of my locker door, "You couldn't seem to take your eyes off of Shelby. Now my mother is going on a wine tasting cruise down the Ohio river so I'll be home alone tonight" Quinn smirked and I wanted to jump her right there in the hallway, but instead I stood up to face her.
"I know we used to have a thing Quinn 'cause I thought you were like the coolest girl in school and you were hot like a pixie, but things changed and I realized the you're the most selfish girl I've met in my entire life." I smirked satisfied with my response and the way that I was containing my real feelings with her while I focused on Shelby.
"Let me rephrase." She shut her locker and stepped closer to whisper in my ear, "If you come over tonight you can have sex with me" She was so close I could smell her perfume and I wanted to kiss her, but I couldn't.
"Nah, Quinn you've been a bit crazy lately... so honestly, I'd rather raw dog a beehive" I walked away from her fighting the laughter that wanted to escape my lips. The look on her face was priceless and I couldn't help but want to laugh because no matter how much I wanted her this... seeing how much she wanted me was that much more interesting. Plus I still had a chance with Shelby.
'How could he say that to me?' Quinn thought to herself. 'I can't believe that after everything he doesn't want me. I mean not that I want him, I just want Beth or what could be a Beth number two. That is basically the only reason I pushed my mother into going on the stupid cruise. I just wanted another chance to get a baby. I need her. I don't think anyone understands why... Maybe I don't. But you know what's funny is that everyone is so into helping Santana. I mean none of them really even like her, but yet everyone is giving her a whole week in glee to stand out. I am her friend and I get she needs people I just wish it wasn't fake friends' Quinn felt odd as she walked down the hall. She just wanted to be alone now. Especially after being turned down by Puck. Of all people, Puck.
Later that night Quinn sat in her room, headphones in as she flipped through a magazine. She was just going to take a shower when her phone rang on her nightstand. She sighed and picked it up to answer, "Hello?" She asked without looking at the caller ID. "Hello?" She said again a bit more impatiently. There was shuffling on the other end and then finally when it cleared up she heard Puck's voice, "I'm coming over" Then the line when dead again. Quinn took the phone away from her ear looking confused. What had suddenly made Puck change his mind?
A few minutes later there was a knock at the door. Quinn had to stop herself from running down the stairs to answer it. This was her chance. Her chance to fix things when it came to Beth. She straightened her cropped hair in the mirror in the hallway before she actually answered the door, "What made you change your mind?" Quinn raised an eyebrow. A signature quirk of hers.
Puck didn't answer. He stepped through the door and his lips fell on hers immediately. He shut the front door with his foot and picked her up, her legs instinctively wrapping around his torso. He continued up the stairs and to her room remembering the way like the back of his hand. He laid with her on her bed and continued to kiss her. Finally he stopped, "I can't do this" He pulled away looking at her breathless.
"What do you mean?" Quinn sat up on her elbows.
"I don't have protection"
"It's okay" Quinn pulled his face to hers again, "We might get lucky again" Quinn whispered breathless.
"What? You mean unlucky?" Puck corrected.
"No. I mean we created one perfect thing and we can make another one." Quinn replied. Puck got completely off of the bed and looked at Quinn.
"Is that why you called me over here?" He asked. He didn't show it but honestly he was hurt. He thought Quinn cared about him, really wanted him back... wanted things between them to work. He didn't ever think that Quinn would sink so low as to try to trick him into having another baby with her. She really was going insane.
"You know what? Fine. There are a million other guys at McKinley who would kill to sleep with me" Quinn snapped yanking her dress down and reaching for her phone.
"No Quinn! Angry sex is never smart. Just stop okay. Look I realized that you aren't selfish... you've been helping Santana this whole week and you've been struggling for three years and not one person took ten seconds to help you and you're still messed up. Have been ever since I knocked you up." Puck put his hands on his hips and Quinn looked down at her hands. "You know I always thought that if someone was going to get out of this town and make something of herself, it was going to be you. You don't need a man or anybody else to make you strong, to make a life for yourself Quinn. I believe in you" Puck knelt down in front of Quinn and kissed her softly.
When he pulled away Quinn looked a bit baffled, but she quickly regained her composure her face an unreadable mask again, "You know what? You are going to lie here with me and just hold me" Quinn stated moving to lay her head on a pillow. Puck smiled and climbed up next to her, kicking his shoes off and then wrapping his arms around her small waist.
"I need to tell you something Quinn and you have to promise not to tell anyone." Puck finally whispered propping his head up on his elbow.
"I promise" Quinn nodded.
"I... I slept with Shelby" Puck stated. He could feel Quinn's body tense, "It just kinda happened after I saw her the other day. She wanted a man for Beth and I wanted to be with Beth. Maybe that's why I did it... because I wanted to be with Beth. I'm sorry Quinn..." Puck looked down at Quinn's unreadable face and found it blank, as usual, "Please say something"
"Say what Puck? We're not together why should I care who you slept with or the reasons? We've both done insane things for Beth. Who am I to judge?" Quinn whispered. Puck looked at her wondering why she had no reaction to him sleeping with Shelby. He thought that something in her still cared about him, but obviously that wasn't true. He guessed that she really did just want him here for a chance at another baby. She really didn't care about him.
"Right" Puck laid back down against her still holding her close. A few hours later Puck was still awake and he thought Quinn was asleep beside him, so he reached over and stroked her cheek wishing that they could have been something more, but he didn't expect her cheeks to be wet with tears. How had he missed that she'd been crying? He felt his heart shatter. She did care, but he was much too late to fix things.
"Hey Mr. Shue... I know it's girl music week but I want to sing something... I just need to get it off my chest. Would you mind?" Puck looked nervously around the room at all of his classmates. Each and everyone of them, to include Shelby and Mr. Shue, had confused looks on their faces. Mr. Shue nodded and Puck picked up his trusty guitar. Shelby looked nervous.
Puck's eyes fell on Quinn who was sitting on the top row in the corner. Her eyes were cast down at the floor. She didn't want to look at him, he could tell. He took a deep breath and started to play. "Same bed but it feels just A little bit bigger now Our song on the radio But it dont sound the same When our friends talk about you All it does is just tear me down Cause my heart breaks a little When I hear your name It all just sounds like (oooooh)
Mmm too young too dumb to realize That I Should of bought you flowers And held you hands Should of gave you all my hours When I had the chance Take you to every party Cause all you wanted to do was dance Now my baby is dancing But shes dancing with another man" He looked around and people seemed to be enjoying his song, but all were still confused with the purpose.
"My pride my ego my needs and my selfish ways Cause the good strong woman like you to walk out my life Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made Ooh and it hunts me every time I close my eyes It all just sounds like (oooooh) Mmm too young too dumb to realize" At that moment the football team came in, each carrying a red rose. They all walked straight up to Quinn and placed them on her lap. The purpose now became obvious.
"That I Should of bought you flowers And held your hands Should of gave you all my hours When I had the chance Take you to every party Cause all you wanted to do was dance Now my baby is dancing But shes dancing with another man Although it hurts I'll be the first to say That I was wrong Oooh I know im probably much too late To try and apologize for my mistakes But I just want you to know" Puck walked up to Quinn and knelt down. Someone else picking up the guitar melody.
"I hope he buys you flowers I hope he hold you hands," Puck grabbed both of Quinn's hands in his. "Give you all hers hours When he has the chance Take you to every party Cause I remember how much You loved to dance Do all the things I should of done When I was your man Do all the things should of done When I was your man"
The entire room was dead silent. Quinn's tear filled eyes finally met Puck's and they just looked at him for a second before she stood up and ran out of the room the pile of roses falling onto the floor at her feet. Puck picked up one of the roses and looked at it in his hand. His heart shattered into a million pieces and each piece seemed to pierce him deeper as the seconds ticked on. The rest of the glee club looked onto the scene shocked to see how it had turned out.
Shelby looked at Puck and felt her heart break too. Puck never really wanted her. It was always for Beth. He loved Quinn. How could she not have seen that? She looked Puck kneeling in front of Quinn's chair with the rose in his hand and more at his feet. She felt bad for him, but more sorry for herself than anything.
"She was everything to me" Puck whispered, "Everything" he whispered again and still there was no sound from anyone else. Puck hadn't ever been the sweet type and this was the first time anyone had seen him do anything romantic since he brought Lauren chocolates on valentines day. This was the most emotional anyone had seen Puck so no one knew what to say. Puck stood still holding the rose. He took a shaky breath trying to calm himself. It didn't work. He kicked the remaining roses on the floor and flipped over the chair Quinn had been sitting in.
Mr. Shue stood up immediately, "Puck I think you should calm down"
"Calm down? You want me to calm down!? The only woman I ever loved just shot me down and ran off and you want me to calm down!?" Puck shouted, "None of you get it do you!? It's always been Quinn! It's always going to be Quinn!" he had tears in his eyes now. He walked away from everyone and he stormed out of the room flipping over a few music stands on his way out and sending papers to the floor.
Everyone watched him leave, his fist still clenched tightly around that final rose.
