Chapter 1
Gentle kisses flutter against the skin of my bare abdomen as I realize this is really happening. Fuck this is really happening, I feel him, Connor, place a hand against my leg,and I realize I'm actually a bit scared. "shh Ash are you sure, really sure"he asks looking at me, "yeah I think so"I say going in for a chaste kiss. One thing leads to another, and before I know it we're done, laying side by side breathing heavy. I really can't believe this happened, never in my wildest dreams, I was just dating Bonnie last week, and now we're here, not sure what we're doing, Connor was just broken up with by Oliver, this is fucking crazy. I feel him place a hand on my cheek and I lean into the rough touch, "you ok, you want to go shower"he asks me, "yeah, just wow"I say feeling a blush creep up my neck.
He doesn't say anything, as he helps me off of the bed and we go to the bathroom, where he turns on the hot water and we get in together. I feel him massage my shoulders, "hey you're tense,it's alright you know"he asks, "I know, it's just the first time it's happened,where I wanted it to happen"I say leaning back into him, "what do you mean, you've made love to Bonnie didn't you "he asks leaning my head back into the stream of water, "yeah, i'm just referring to an experience that happened a few years ago"I say. "shh you want to tell me about it when we get out"he asks, "yeah"I say. I feel him wash my hair and he washes me down and I do the same for him.
We get out after this and I dry off, then I get into a t shirt and sweats, then we head back to bed. I crawl in and actually lay facing him as he strokes my forehead, "do you mind telling me about the experience"he asks gently, "not really"I say, "ok go"he says. "I went out for drinks with friends 2 years ago, so my junior year of college, and I was drugged, didn't know it until I realized I was a lot drunker than I should 've been given the circumstances, and by then it was too late, everything blanks out after that, the next thing I know I wake up in a strange bed, naked, sick and feeling like something was wrong"I say. "OK what did you do after baby"he says, "I got up, dressed and I went to the ER, I was so scared but I knew it was the right thing to do, no one else but my mom knows I made sure it was kept confidential"I say.
"ok were the cops ever involved"he asks, "they were for awhile, they were investigating it as a sexual assault but nothing ever came of it, they found out it was one of my friends that did it but by that point I had had enough and backed out, but I got a restraining order, he only approached me once after that to try again but I got away that time "I say, "He's not bothering you now is he"he asks me, "no not in a long time, but that's why I'm still nervous, why I'm a little uncomfortable"I say as he pulls my shirt up and rests his hand against my stomach, "am I making you uncomfortable right now"he asks quietly stroking my skin, "I'm ok now, ooh"I say as he hits the right spot between my legs and I relax. "shh,relax ok,can you lay on your stomach"he asks gently, "yeah"I say letting out a breath as I roll onto my stomach. I feel his hands on my back,gently stroking, and I start to relax even more as I start to get sleepy. I let him help me get onto my side and before I know it I'm out,worn out tired from the events of the evening.