Song fic about Gil getting Sara's wedding announcement and invitation. His worst fears have come true. Sara's moved on and he hasn't. Can he let go? Song by Toby Keith, absolutely love this song!!! There's gonna be a part 2, ENJOY!!!

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Grissom sat at his desk, flipping through the mail until Catherine burst through his door and he looked sharply at her.

"Gil, did you get a pink envelope from San Francisco?" She asked breathlessly, and he rifled through his mail, nodding and holding up an envelope.

"Open it." She demanded, and he looked at her strangely and opened it, sliding out a piece of silver paper with a blue bow on it.

"You have been cordially invited to attend and witness the joining of two people in holy matrimony. Mr. Garth Scott and Ms. Sara Sidle and taking their vows on December 25th 2008. The reception will be held in the built-in hall, and Ms. Sara Sidle would love it if you could attend. Please send either a regret or acceptance. Hope to see you there!"

Grissom read it again, and it almost fell out of his hand. Nick, Warrick and Greg walked up and Grissom heard them talking to Catherine in the background, and then gratefully saw Catherine leading them away. He stood up, turned the light off and strode to his car, driving home to his townhouse as fast as he possibly could.

When he got there, he pulled out a bottle of water, pretending that it was beer and downed it, asking himself if he was going to go or not. He was leaning towards the not, as it was Christmas and he didn't want to make a fool of himself at her wedding. She deserved to be happy, and he loved her enough not to ruin that for her. He knew that if he showed up it would darken the evening for Sara, and he wouldn't dare do that. He knew that if he had been the one getting married, Sara would send him a card or something, but she wouldn't show up, as they both knew each other enough to just know that that wasn't the right thing to do.

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The next day at work Grissom walked into work and the team was buzzing about Sara's wedding, but they fell silent when Grissom walked in. He grabbed a cup of coffee and disappeared into his office, so they could talk. Grissom heard the gist of it, apparently Nick, Warrick, Greg and Catherine were going, and Warrick was taking Catherine, and Nick was taking his girlfriend, Samantha, who was Sara's sister and already in San Francisco, making the details final. Greg was taking his girlfriend, Catherine's sister Trixie, and they were leaving in a few days, but they would only be gone for a few days, not long enough to leave the lab shorthanded, as the lab techs would step up and so would swing shift and day shift.

Then, the dreaded day arrived. The day Sara Sidle married someone other than himself.

Seven thirty five

She's someone else's wife

And I can get on with my life

And that thrills me

She married him today

Her daddy gave the bride away

I heard a tear rolled down her face

And that kills me

'Cause now I

Can see why

She's finally cryin'

Grissom looked at the clock and saw that it was 7:35, which meant that Sara was someone else's wife. The ceremony was at 7:00, and by now it was over, and Sara was officially out of his grasp. Grissom said out-loud to himself,

"Well, now I can get on with my life. How thrilling." He muttered the last sentence with sarcasm dripping in his voice and he shook his head at himself. Grissom could just picture what had happened in the ceremony, he could see Brass giving Sara away, as he had always been a father figure to him. He could also imagine a tear rolling down her face.

He was startled, he had just realized that he had never seen Sara cry; really cry in front of him, except maybe once or twice. He had never cried in front of her either, both of them too strong to let the other see them break. That was what tore them apart eventually, Grissom knew, that they had never really, truly opened up to each other. Seeing Sara in his mind cry at her wedding just about killed him, because he know knew why she was finally crying.

Because she had found someone she loved more than Grissom. She had found someone that loved her back, but not more than how Grissom loved her. There was no way that Garth guy could top that. No way.

How was I supposed to know

She was slowly lettin' go

If I was putting her through hell

Hell I couldn't tell

She could've given me a sign

And opened up my eyes

How was I supposed to see

She never cried in front of me

With an angry cry he threw the bottle of water at the wall, asking himself how he was supposed to know that Sara was slowly letting go. He supposed that he should've seen it coming, ever since that one case with the little girl she had been different. Darker, dare he say it. Then, after she had been kidnapped the real Sara had surfaced, but then she had slipped deeper and deeper into depression, and then she had left, taking half his heart with her and breaking the other half into a million pieces. Grissom realized now that trying to get her to go out and have fun was putting her through hell, and then he had handed her that case with the same little girl, he should've known better. He should've known that that would put her through hell.

Truth be told he should've listened and paid more attention to her, maybe then she wouldn't be marrying someone other than himself. Also, if she had just given him a sign, one small, simple, subtle sign that had opened up his eyes he would've done something differently. He would've done anything differently. Honestly, how was Gil Grissom, bug lover, supposed to see that Sara had never really, truly cried in front of him?

Yeah maybe I mighta changed

It's hard for me to say

But the story's still the same

It's a sad one

And I'll always believe

If she ever did cry for me

They were tears that you can't see

You know the bad ones

And now I

Can see why

She's finally cryin'

And who knows, Grissom thought, he could've changed if Sara had just told him about what she was feeling. He really could've and would've changed for Sara if she had told him about her problems. Heck, if she had told him about her ghosts he would've gone with her to help fight them off.

But then again, it's really hard for him to say whether he could've changed or not, as the story is still the same, not matter what. And it's a sad story too. And no matter what, Grissom will always believe that if Sara did cry in front of him, they were the kind of tears that no one can see, the bad ones.

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End of part 1, part 2 to come soon! Please review, and thanks for reading!!! I hope you liked it and adios for now!!!