Trigon was gone. The war had been won. And, for the first time in her life, Raven was free. She was free to feel all of her emotions. No longer would she have to keep herself in check. She was free to feel joy, sadness, even rage. And, perhaps even more importantly, she was free to fall in love. She was still a little bit scared about losing control, but, with the looming threat of Trigon gone, she was getting used to it.

In fact she was already in love. The thought struck her as if it was a bolt of lightning. She was in love with her best friend and teammate Robin. The fear of how he would react if she confessed her feelings kept her from confessing. There never was too much chemistry between them, or so she thought. He seemed to be more interested in Starfire.

So she kept her feelings to herself for three long years. But today was the anniversary of her father's defeat and death, as well as her 21st birthday. Today would be different. She would finally tell Robin of her feelings tonight. She couldn't quite tell what she was so attracted to about Robin, but he was reliable and a little bit like her. Perhaps that was it?

The time of the party arrived all too soon, for Raven's taste. Her nerves were on ends as she and the rest of the Titans walked into the Eternity night club. The sight that greeted her did nothing to calm her nerves. All of the Titans East as well as all the honorary Titans were there.

At first she greeted all of the guests and thanked them, but she never was much of a people person. That much hadn't changed. After she had consumed thirteen martinis, at least when she stopped counting, a very drunk Raven stumbled over to an equally drunk Robin. She was trying to confess her feelings. Instead she grabbed Robin by the back of his neck, and kissed him on the lips without a second thought.

She felt Robin return the kiss. Then she felt his hands moving over her body. At first she was a little bit scared at the unfamiliar contact, but wherever Robin touched her it felt warm and tingly. His hands felt heavenly against her ash gray skin. When Robin's left hand moved from her stomach to her right breast she used her powers to move them to her room. The moment they appeared in her room she pulled Robins red t-shirt over his head, throwing it into the corner. Robin followed Raven's example and pulled her dark midnight blue t-shirt over her head. They continued to disrobe each other and after a while moved towards Raven's bed.

...

Three weeks had passed since their drunken night together. Raven awoke at 3:16 am, feeling nauseous. She quickly made her way to her bathroom, with her hand over her mouth. After she reached the toilet she fell to her knees and vomited. Raven awoke in this manner for the next four days. Afraid that something was terribly wrong with her body she tried to use her powers to get to the hospital. Instead of teleporting to the hospital the light in her bathroom exploded. Then she tried to create a disc which she could use to fly to the emergency room. Instead her books flew onto the floor.

There was just no way around it. She was going to have to ask for some help, but whom? Beast Boy wouldn't shut up long enough to help and even if he did, he would blurt it out to the others. Robin was busy with paper work and would probably grow suspicious. Starfire would worry too much and be way too overprotective. She had an idea! Cyborg could help her and he would keep it a secret.

She made her way to the garage to ask Cyborg for a ride. When Raven walked into the garage she found Cyborg, working on his "baby", the T-Car.

"Cy!" called Raven.

Cyborg turned around to see his "little sister". Cyborg was immediately alarmed to see that Raven's complexion was even paler than normal. "Rae, what's wrong? Are you feeling alright?"

"No. I've been throwing up for the past four weeks. I need a ride to the emergency room. Can you take me?" He put down his tools and looked at her, clearly worried. Raven was the last person to ask for help when it wasn't absolutely necessary.

"I can run some blood test and try to find out what's wrong."

"NO! Please, Cy, just take me there. I would like to keep this to myself. I would just teleport or fly there myself, but my powers are a bit unstable. I'm not trying to offend you, Cy." Raven said, seeing the hurt look on his face.

Cyborg sighed and said. "Ok, Rae, hop in. I'll take you there."

"Thanks, Cy. And please don't tell about this."

Raven had to sit on a hospital bed for several hours while a nurse drew blood after explaining her symptoms to a doctor. Once the nurse got all the blood needed for the array of test that the doctor had ordered she asked Raven to wait in the waiting room. For two hours Raven sat and waited, the fear building as seconds turned into minutes and minutes turned into hours. She tried to meditate, but she was too troubled. After two and half hours of waiting the nurse called Raven into the examination room.

"Well, Ms. Roth, we got the results of the blood test and all of them say the same thing. You're pregnant. One month, by the looks of it." Raven felt several emotions hit her at once. She was a little bit happy and scared, but mostly confused.

"That's impossible." Just as she finished saying the words the drunken night with Robin came crashing into her memory. "Oh Azar!" she said as tears started to form in her violet eyes. "Don't worry, Ms. Roth, you do have options. You could give the baby up for adoption or you could get an abortion, if you don't want to keep the baby."

"NO! I will have this baby and raise it as my mother should have done for me." said Raven with absolute confidence.

The doctor smiled and responded "You will be a great mother Ms. Roth."

The ride back to the tower was filled with silence. As Cyborg pulled back into the garage Raven walked as fast as her legs could carry her, back to her room. On her way out of the garage she went past Robin without a word.

"Hey, Cyborg, what's wrong with Raven?" asked Robin.

"Nothing that I know of. Why?"

"She just walked past me without saying a single word, and when I called her name she just kept going."

"Well, you know how she can be. Maybe she got annoyed with Brit Boy."

...

Another three days had passed by. And Raven hadn't said more than two words to anybody. She was trying to work up the courage to tell Robin that she was pregnant. She was terrified that Robin would hate her. That he might tell her to "get rid" of the baby. That was something she refused to even think about. In the end she decided to say it plain out and be as blunt as possible.

Raven walked out of her room, towards Robin's office, which was next to the evidence room. As she neared Robin's office she could her Starfire talking.

"Friend Robin, I have some things to speak to you about."

"Sure Star. What is it?"

"I am feeling the falling in love with you." Raven could almost feel her heart breaking as soon as Starfire had finished saying these words. No matter how Robin answered, this was going to be painful for her.

For a moment Robin couldn't believe what he was hearing. Star loved him.

"I love you too, Star. I've loved you since I first met you."

As the words left his mouth the light above Robins head exploded, leaving both Starfire and Robin in the dark.

Raven went back to her room, feeling utterly broken. She decided that she had to leave. She had to get away from this place. Away from the crushing sorrow that gripped her heart. She had enough money saved to buy a small house and put her through school. But what city would she move to? Not Gotham where he would eventually go back. Not Steel City, that where the Titans east lived.

Metropolis! She could go there. She could make a fresh start. She had made up her mind. Writing a letter with only one word she packed and left. She would raise her child, by herself, if she must.

The next morning Robin, Cyborg, Starfire and Beast Boy woke up to find a note on the kitchen table with Raven's communicator resting on top of it. The note only had one word. Goodbye.

"Where has friend Raven gone?" asked Starfire.

...

Raven woke herself up, sobbing again.

In the next room, a ten year old girl with ash gray skin and black hair with natural violet highlights lay awake, listening to her mother cry.

'It makes me so angry at the people that made her cry. They will pay for making my mother cry.'