Title: "Goodbye's The Saddest Word" (Fic 1 of ?)
Series: "Letter's to Mum"
Authoress: Mistress Vamp
Pairing/Rating: Molly/Ginny ((PG13))
Summary: A daughter says goodbye to her mother.
Overall Series Summary: Letters to a deceased mother helps keep her informed of what's happening in the lives of her survivors.
Disclaimer: JKR owns the "Harry Potter" fandom. Copyright infringement not intended. I am merely using the characters for my own pleasures. Please don't sue. I have nothing to give.
Spoilers/Warnings: OOCness
Feedback: Don't like it? Don't flame it. Constructive critisicm is ok and it's accepted, but please don't bash it.
Thank You: To Shannon for the beta read. She's my savior! To my girl, Dru, for believing in me when no one else did.
Authoress Note: Fic inspired by the song 'Goodbye's (The Saddest Word)' by Celine Dion. You can find the lyrics here: (http:)()(www)(lyricsfreak)(com/c/celine-dion/28277)html
Word Count: 852 ((Doesn't include the Letter header))
Written on: March 23, 2005
Letter #1 - Goodbye, Mum (March 10, 1999)
Dearest Mum,
I know you are probably wondering why I'm writing this and well, I am wondering the same thing, actually. I don't really know what to say except that I miss you. I'm not too good with words, so we'll see where this leads?
Dad misses you, too, you know? He cries at night when he thinks we're not awake, but I can't sleep too much anymore. Sometimes I'll creep to your room and sit against the wall, wishing I could just open the door and comfort him, but I know he wouldn't appreciate it. He's become extremely protective of us since it all started. He has trust that Harry's going to defeat He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, but I guess he is scared to lose more of us.
Shortly after you died, we buried Fred, Percy, and Charlie. They're all with you wherever it is you are now, I'm sure. I just hope Percy's not such a jerk now. Maybe death did him good? George hasn't been the same since we buried Fred. It's like, according to Dad, someone missing a limb. They still feel it even if it's not there. We've caught him talking to himself and leaving part of his sentences hanging. Dad thinks George still believes Fred's with us. It hurts to watch him go through that and not know how to help him.
Ron's not doing so good either. Dad says he's depressed since you have been gone. He doesn't eat, he doesn't sleep, and all he does is stare in front of him. He doesn't really acknowledge any of us, except Harry and Hermione. Honestly, I think it's all about the war strategy. They, like us, want to get this over with. He loves them, you know? I think it's more than friendship, but you didn't hear that from me, k?
Bill seems to be coping. He has Fleur with him so I think he has a bit more strength than the rest of us do. But, I also think he's hiding it quite well. 'It' being his pain. You know? Being the eldest and all, he might feel like he has to be the strongest out of us all, including Dad.
-Sighs- I wish you could see us all again. Or maybe not. I think you would be mad to see what has happened to us. I try to keep the house clean as much as I can. I know you hated it whenever we messed it up right after you cleaned. I am not as good a cook as you are, but I think I'm getting better. The Order and the family don't seem to mind. Though, they could only be saying that so they won't hurt my feelings. It wouldn't happen. I can't fill your shoes, but I can keep trying.
I wish I could give you one last hug. I do miss you something terrible. I know we didn't get on well together too much when you were alive, but I did love you. I still do. I don't think I ever told you that enough, or how much I appreciated the fact that you were there whenever I needed you.
I'm sure you would be happy to know that I am about to finish my last year of Hogwarts. I'm not sure what I'll be doing afterwards. Seamus wants us to move in together, but I'm not sure right now. I'm not sure if I can leave Dad and George. Seamus said he wouldn't mind if we didn't have a place of our own for a while though. I wonder if we could add onto the burrow? You think Dad would go for that? This way, I'm still here with him, yet I have a 'home' with Seamus until I can find the strength to leave?
-Soft breath- I'm sorry we failed you, Mum. We tried so hard to find you before it all ended. None of us got to say goodbye to you. We're all so angry it ended the way it did. It shouldn't have happened. If only I had went instead of you...
Dad gets angry with me when I put myself at blame. He doesn't believe it was my fault, but I know better. If we hadn't fought, you would still be here and alive. You would still be in his arms and maybe then, Fred, Percy, and Charlie would still be alive.
I should probably end this for now. I will write to you again soon to let you know how we're all doing. I wish I could give this to you to read, but I'm sure that wherever you are you can at least hear me when I read it out loud. I know you are always listening. That will never fail.
One last thing before I leave you for now, Mum. I hope you know that no matter where you are, or what it is you have become in death, I will always love you. You were the greatest mother to exist. Even in death, you still are.
I love you, Mum.
Your loving daughter,
Ginerva Weasley