Dear Diary,
I have to face it. I must. I'm in love.
I've dated multiple boys. For fun, for a break, or just to spite my parents. But I've never felt anything for any of the hot player guys I've messed around with. I never even thought love was real. I dated them for their looks, and they dated me for mine. The only guy I've even gotten remotely close to was a traitor, evil. Since then, I've just completely given up the fantasy of ever being in love.
Until Simon Lewis.
When I first met him, I would have laughed if anyone told me I'd be pining over him one day. Him, the classic nerd character, me, the beautiful girl any guy would kill to have a chance with. I can still remember how much he reminded me of my little brother. Skinny with glasses falling of the bridge of his nose, with brown hair he didn't even bother to brush. He stared at me with awe, but of course, I was used to it. I didn't even care, but that was then. Now, I cant even close my eyes without his dimpled, smiling face filling my mind. Not that I care.
Nowadays, he looks nothing like Max. He got rid of the glasses (vamp vision is perfect), he combs his hair every once in a while, and he's gaining a bit of muscle from whatever training he's been doing. He still doesn't look like anyone I used to date, but he's pretty hot in my opinion. Clary agrees with me on that, but I know she never loved Simon and never will. On the other hand, Maia Roberts is a bit of competition. I know I shouldn't be jealous of her, but she hangs out with Simon so much.
Alec and Clary tell me I should just ask him out, but it isn't that simple. I've never asked a guy out before. I know, surprising, but guys always have asked me out first. Clary said not to wait, because Simon was nervous around me and would never ask me out. Maybe she's right. I would never want to frighten him, but I have had that effect on shorter boys before.
I wish this feeling wouldn't infiltrate my heart and make everything so much harder. Now I don't only have to focus on fixing my parents relationship, protecting Jace, Alec, and Clary, but also protecting (and loving) Simon Lewis. Out of all the people I could've fallen in love with, he's a vamp. Someone Sebastian will be targeting.
I have to go. Clary says someone's here to see me. She sounds quite excited. Maybe its Simon, come to ask me out? No, I shouldn't get my hopes up. Oh wait, that's his voice! I'll keep you updated.
Isabelle Sophia Lightwood, signing off
A/N: I know, its short. Btw, i wrote this super fast and without checking anything, so grammar mistakes are likely. If you're following Differences, chapter eight should be up tonight, I'm having YerathielNightingale423 check it out for me.
-AELS