I've done it! I've actually written a companion fic to my Van-fic "One More Day!" I've had this one, with this song, just sort of floating around my head ever since I wrote that one. ::beams:: That said, it's not a requirement to read the other one to get this one, they both stand alone fine; of course, reading them both is something I—as the author and all—heartily recommend. =^_~=
Anyway, I always thought that the Escaflowne movie had such a heartbreaking, Van and Hitomi will never see each other again, sort of finality that the series never did, so, working from that (and remembering that LH-chan owns neither Escaflowne, nor the Dixie Chicks ::grumble:: song "Without You," which was of great inspiration), we have this...
Without You
LH-chan '03
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I can see the moon from my window tonight...if I lie back in bed and turn my head just so.
Cool white light...up there with all those stars...
...up there with...
"Van..." the word slips past my lips unbidden.
You're up there...somewhere, aren't you?
You're real...even though I can't see you.
Sometimes...I can delude myself into thinking you were a dream, you know.
Or tell my friends about you...about Gaea...
...let them tell me I'm crazy...
I never left the Earth...I never even left this room...or this bed...
It was all just a dream...a nightmare...
It's easy...to believe that sometimes...
...when I'm at home...at school...in all the familiar places...
....places where all the amazing things I saw in your world don't exist.
I can be so sure it wasn't real.
I can laugh over it with my friends...
...just Hitomi's silly old story...
But at the end of the day...when I lay down here, in my own bed...where I can see the stars...the moon...
Before I know it, your name will be on my lips...these silly tears will be in my eyes...
The memory is so clear then...
I'll never see you again...will I?
No, I don't need to ask...
...I'm the one with the great intuition after all...
I know…I've always known...
...since we stood together on the cliff top...
...since I saw you in the train station long ago...
I love you...I've always loved you...
...and I know...I've always known...we were never meant to be together long.
So I'll get up tomorrow, and tell myself again that you weren't real.
I'll do the same on the next tomorrow...and the next...
...and some nights I'll stare at the moon.
Until I'm an old woman...
...I'll live...
...the slow, steady, death of living...
...without you...
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Owari.