Coding: Roslin/Apollo
Spoilers: Black Market
Void
He does not love me anymore. He turns from me, ashamed that he ever had a weakness for me. He used to slay the demons on my behalf now I fight alone. I am strong, I will survive. I always survive.
The emptiness is back; vast and dark. Inside me, I feel it swell and unfurl... he is not here to fill it. He is far from me now.
My need for him blends with my fear; the fabric of my heart tears... his continual absence widens the hole. I am being sucked into the void; molecule by molecule. Slowly disintegrating.
Pride is all that sustains me; I will not seek him out. I will not apologise. I am not repentant of the sin he has accused me of.
He proved his loyalty; then took it back. No discussion - just assumptions and judgement.
He denies me now, has cast me out. Time will punish him. One day he will see clearly and regret what passed between us. Clarity will haunt him and hound his conscience.
But this is not our ending. It's an interval; I feel it. There is more to come; he will return to me. I can wait, I am patient. Then our true ending will unfold.
He will love me again.