A/N: I absolutely love Glee! I hope you like this story and please review. Nothing like this is lame but if you have some criticism or some ideas I would love to hear them. As always I do own anything Glee related except for the ideas that come to own anything Glee related except for the ideas that come to m regarding this wonderful show!
Chapter 1
Of all the boys at McKinnely High, no of all the boys in Ohio, scratch that of all the boys in the world , Kurt chose the one boy he most definitely can't have. First dating head captain of Quinn Fabray while being interested in glee club "ingénue" Rachel Berry, and all of that has fallen apart in front of his eyes due to a not so elaborate web of lies spun by the queen bitch herself. Now he's heartbroken and completely off limits to man, woman, and whatever else may possibly get him off. It's a sad waste of a boy in Kurt's opinion. McKinnely High's one and only Finn Hudson. The boy who has been the object of Kurt's undying affection for as long as he's laid eyes on him. His knight in shining armor. He's the only football player who hasn't actually thrown Kurt in the dumpster himself. He also looked pretty remorsefully whenever Puck would do it.
Glee club was in the choir room rehearsing a new number for Regionals when Rachel's incessantly shrill voice cut through the noise of fumbling feet hitting the floor.
"Mr. Shuester, I don't think this number is going to work out." Hands crossed her chest in that impatient air about her.
"What's wrong with this number?" Mr. Shue asked, looking equally impatient with Rachel's constant interruption during reahearsals.
"First of all everyone does Thriller," she had a point there. If they were attempting to pull it off then there's no guarantee that Vocal Adrenaline isn't doing it better. "Second there's no boy in here who can hit all the notes with as much intensity as the song demands." For a split second Kurt was thinking about arguing the fact that all of those notes were well within his range but he stopped himself from future embarrassment. As much as he loved Michael Jackson, he didn't think he could be in front of crowd singing this song. "And finally nobody seems to be getting the moves and the next person who steps on my feet will be hearing from my two gay dad's lawyer!" she finished finally taking a breath. Kurt knew that a couple of times he stepped on her foot just because he knew how much it aggravated her.
"Rachel, Thriller is a crowd pleaser and—"
"Not if they've seen it a million times!" she almost yelled out. She was now going red with frustration. Mr. Shue was not far behind her though. They just stared each other down for what seemed like minutes before the silence drove Kurt crazy.
"Hmm…if I may interject" Kurt said stepping forward. Everyone seemed to focus in the on the male soprano. Just the way he liked it. "Maybe we need to reinvent the song somehow."
"But it's a classic" Santana sneered.
"I never said we had to change the song or the choreography per se" Kurt said
"Then what is it that we're changing?!" Rachel finally snapped. Just as Kurt was about to put Rachel in her place, he saw Finn put his hand on Rachel's shoulder ever so gently, and he refrained. Kurt's stomach plummeted and his mouth was suddenly dry. To see Finn calm Rachel and soothe her so instantaneously with a single touch hurt him. He wished he was on the receiving end of that touch and sometimes he could even imagine being touched in such a way. The touch that increased his heartbeat, twisted his stomach into a million different knots, and had him actually struggling to speak. The only thing that hurt him worse than that was Rachel and Finn's faces. They looked at each other and smiled, knowing that they were sharing a moment. They were no longer in the choir room. They were off in some distant realm where it was just the two of them. The same place I wanted to be with Finn.
"So what did you have in mind Kurt?"Mr. Shuester asked breaking the spell of endearment on the three glee clubbers. Kurt quickly collected himself and continued with suggestion, "Well I was thinking that since the other mash ups we've done so far haven't been sung in front of an audience, then maybe we can each try and find a song to mash together with Thriller?"
Everybody seemed to agree with this idea by the sounds of their mumbling and head nods. "Which song are we gonna use then?" asked Rachel forgetting all too quickly that she had just been quieted by Finn. "That's why I said we'll EACH TRY and find a song to go with it Rachel! Oh and next time you think you can just snap at me like that I'll be sure to give you the nose removal that you so oh so desperately need with my bare hands Barbara Streisand!" replied Kurt with as much venom he could he could muster in his words as well as in his look.
"Damn!" Mercedes said looking dumbstruck. The whole room sat silent and surprised. Just as Kurt went to his chair to fetch his stuff and leave Finn stopped him, "Hey don't talk to my girlfriend like that!" he said in a dangerously low tone." That's why he was so off limits…it was because he was. Rachel just looked at him with a smile growing on her face at the sound of the word "girlfriend". Kurt's tears were no longer able to contain themselves as they just ran down his face. Finn stepped back, speechless. Kurt now just had one choice; run. He quickly gathered his things and quickly exited the classroom, soon followed by Mercedes and Tina before Mr. Shue cold stop them. Their destination? The girl's restroom.
Once the three were in there Kurt collapsed, his back against one of the stalls. "What's wrong K-K-Kurt?" Tina asked, knowing the answer would be a single syllable four letter word. "Finn," Kurt managed to choke out, "Did you see his face? He hates me." He allowed himself to choke out a few more sobs before Mercedes spoke up, "He doesn't hate you, but you aren't his favorite person right now." Mercedes and Tina continued to comfort the soprano before someone burst through the door. It was none other than the rival ingénue. "Kurt…hun?" she said approaching him cautiously.
"You have some nerve steppin' in here girl. You lucky I don't bust you up right here!" screamed Mercedes. Rachel flinched slightly, but quickly recovered, returning her attention on Kurt. "I want to apologize for the way I acted and for the way Finn, gallant as it was, behaved. It was completely inappropriate and I want you to know something," Kurt looked up as Rachel looked away unable to look into the, obviously crushed, boy's eyes, "I didn't even know that Finn and I were dating up until now. As hard as that is to accept I'm gonna have to ask you to look past this infantile dispute and work as comrades…not adversaries."
Kurt couldn't believe what she was asking of him? Look past the fact that she has the heart of the one boy he has his eyes on? It was absolutely ludicrous…but what was the point of fighting the inevitable. He knew he was going to go after her sooner or later. The soprano dried his eyes and got to his feet quickly. "That sounds like the only option but remember, I'm only doing this for the sake of glee club so don't think this changes anything between us." He exited the restroom, brushing by her on the way out.
The rest of the day was a blur to Kurt. Nothing seemed to be the same. He couldn't concentrate in any of his classes, which wasn't unusual, but today wasn't filled with daydreaming about what he would wear to his first date with Finn or how soft Finn's lips looked. Instead it was filled with Finn's angry look back in the choir room and Finn's choice of a romantic partner. He was about to just put his head down and sleep when his phone vibrated in his pocket. His heart stopped when he saw the name of who sent the text.
Finn
Finn
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:47
dude i feel really bad 4 what how i acted :/
…r u ok?
Kurt
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:48
I'm fine and I'm sorry for what I said as well. Is Rachel making you send me this btw?
Finn
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:50
no man i really do feel bad…do you not believe me? :(
Kurt
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:51
I do…are you mad at me?
Finn
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:52
nah dude…you're one of the few tru friends I have.
Lol that rhymed XD ^^^^^
Kurt
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:54
Easily amused aren't we Hudson?
Finn
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:55
yea sorry :/
any ideas for the mash up yet? :D
Kurt
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:57
Yeah a few…how about you?
Finn
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:58
not yet…AAAAH IT'S ALMOST LUNCH XP
Kurt
Sent: Wednesday, September 9, 2009 11:59
Indeed it is…ttyl
With that the bell rang but Kurt didn't have much of an appetite. He wandered around the halls for a bit before he figured out where he could be alone. The auditorium. He had too many feelings to talk or even cry out. He had to sing.
As he entered the auditorium he felt a sudden of belonging. A sanctuary for all kids but, it was a special place for kids like Kurt. He quickly made his way to the light booth to set up the lights he would need for his "performance". He stepped on stage and felt the heat of the lights hit him full force under his Alexander McQueen as he walked towards the piano. For a second he regretted even thinking this would help him get rid of his plethora of emotions. Sitting at the piano remembering vividly of how Finn willingly bared his soul to Kurt and how all Kurt could was watch. Kurt shook his vigorously, not so hard to mess his hair up, to clear his mind of anything Finn-related.
Laying his hands on the piano he began to pick up a familiar but, melancholy introduction that he knew was subconsciously chosen by fate. As the intro came to end he began to the words that were so painfully true to him.
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
He played a small little interlude he came up with before he dove back into the song. He knew it was probably a little uncharacteristic for this song, but he felt the song was his when he was able to successfully add a small riff to it.
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a boy with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Ironically he let Finn see him cry. He exposed his weakness not only to him but also to Rachel. The shrill voiced jezebel with a nose you could land planes on. The way she tried to console Kurt in the bathroom was audacious and downright patronizing. She achieved what she was going for though. She broke Kurt even more than he thought possible. Did it happen when we first met?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never told you how I felt
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart He once again added his own little interlude to skip the chorus and go straight to the bridge. The music built only to expose his feelings in a short and simple verse.
How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
A single tear fell from his already puffy red eyes. Regardless of what the song said, he wished he could just cry in Finn's arms. He closed his eyes and finished.
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a boy with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cryAll my life...
As the last chord resonated in the spacious auditorium as he exhaled deeply. A metaphorical weight was lifted from his shoulder as an actually weight was placed on them. He jumped only slightly as the hand on his shoulder gave him a gentle squeeze, as to say "It'll be ok". Kurt slowly looked up to the lopsided grin that made him blush furiously. It was the cause of all his pain and the remedy to it as well.
"Finn! I didn't hear you step on stage or even see your looming shadow on the piano." Kurt jibed at the taller boy. Finn just brushed it off as he motioned for Kurt to stand up. Kurt complied reluctantly but promptly nonetheless. The taller boy remained silent as he turned Kurt to face him. Kurt was starting to question Finn's unorthodox behavior as he looked in his eyes.
"Need a hug?" Finn asked his arms extended. Kurt accepted his offer with a big grin. They stood there hugging for some time in silence. Not an awkward silence that Kurt was expecting. It was more of a silence of understanding. Finn understood the soprano was hurt, but for all he knew the song he just heard was about a completely different situation than what had occurred earlier.
Kurt would relish the moment of having Finn's arms wrapped around him. This may be the only moment that Finn would offer to be this close to the soprano. As Kurt inhaled deeply he wished he could memorize this scent. It was, of course a manly scent, something so indescribable and wonderful. It wasn't like when any other boy would walk by either. The Abercrombie & Fitch cologne was now an odor compared to Finn's scent. It was an essence that couldn't be captured in a bottle. His hands were positioned firmly, with a gentle stroking touch occasionally, just below the smaller boy's shoulder blades, but that was enough to excite to Kurt. If he moved his hands it would send a shock wave down Kurt's spine and make his legs give out.
"Feeling better?" Finn chuckled obviously reaching the delicate precipice of uncomfortable. "Yeah thanks Finn…sorry if I stained you're shirt with tears or even…saliva" Kurt admitted to, quite embarrassed.
"You sure?"
I'm not fine thought the smaller boy but he knew if he said that he would be asked a million questions over what was bothering him and he really didn't feel like confessing his love for the other boy and getting shot down. "Yes Finn." he said finally letting go of him and fixing his appearance.
"Well if you need to talk, you have my number," Finn said, "don't hesitate to use it either" he said exiting stage right not before turning and grinning just a little. As always Finn left Kurt in confusion and in complete admiration. He might actually want to use his number later on today though. Friendship with Finn is better than nothing….
I hope you liked it! Please review! Btw the song that Kurt sang was Cry by Rihanna. Ideas for future songs or just the story in general? Please message me or just add it to the reviews! Please and thank you!