I'm not Numb II

Lost

Gain

Memories

Same

Pain

Run Away

My Family's Sanity

Shut it off

Through the trees you could see flashes of yellow, orange and blue appearing in a random order. A young leaf nin was now racing against his excitement to get home.

I just finished my first solo mission! He'll be happy ;I just know it! I'll prove that damn council that I can be worse than Kyuubi! I will become a strong Ninja! I'll make Aito show his face for me! I'll make them pay for what they all did! I'll join Aito!...three years.

Jumping through the trees, the boy hadn't noticed the red chakura leaking out of his eyes like bloody tears. He didn't notise his legs feeling weaker and weaker untill -Thump-he was sent plummeting down to the roots of the trees. He groaned then widened his eyes as his saw a tree's trunk sway back and forth. The same tree he had fallen from. He tried to think of a way out of the crater but his mind drifted to what ended him in this near deaf experience-

He walked to the Hokage tower thinking of the words in a message sent to him.

'Come to the hokage tower at five minutes past. Come alone. There will be a shadow of a Willow tree-follow it. When you are at the needed place do nothing but litsen. The voices you'll hear are that of the Council's and Hokage and me. When it is time to escape, look for the Willow. Tap it twice then say Flee you will end up in the exact location you received this at. The message will blow in flames in ...2...1. Now. '

It was weird but he followed the directions gingerly. He ended up in the walls and thought this toke an other level to the saying 'The walls have ears'. But, such was the life of a ninja. He listened on.

"I have come today to request that Naruto Uzumaki will be given the title Chunin."

"Now, why would we allow that?"

"The brat doesn't even desirve it."

"I'll have you know that it was Uzumaki-kun that save us all from a Buuji and his container. If not for him, we would be at an even more loss than when Orochimaru invaded. The third was able to defeat him with the help of Jaraiya-san but they were weakened. We loss numbers in our attack and defence force so the Buuji would and could have easily killed us all. And I say again, If not for a certain Naruto Uzumaki."

...

"We agree. But he will have to prove he will be able to be outside the village alone. A solo mission will be an excellant test."

" grrr...if minato were alive right now..."

He head a voice in-front of him whisper. The man seemed to be an Andu on guard.

"Hey, kid. You hearin this shit? You want to become Hokage for this fuckin village? You on drugs?"

So it was an Andu who had sent that message. An Andu who had a burning passion of hate for Konoha. But, why?

"Don't answer that. Do nothin but listen, 'member? Now I think it's time for you to be lookin for that Willow, huh kid? My name Aito and to the people of Konoha, I ain't real. But, I can be real for ya. Now bye bye. See ya in three years and keep in touch with ya's furry friend."

The man was gone. He heard footsteps. Looking for the tree, he thought about what he had heard.

Did he really love a village that didn't trust him? Maybe he was being lazy-but, why should he try so hard for only a few people that didn't even know him? Aito was right and what kinds of drugs was he talking about?

Shaking his head, he tapped the tree branch gently twice.

" Flee."

He was in his bed in his apartment, on a unimportant street in an hidden village that treated him like the dead.

They buried him six-feet under. In not dirt but lies, pain, despire, anger and insanity. He was buried alive but his heart continued to beat though slower and slower with every hurtful word/glare/snarl directed towards him.

He had never told anyone-not even the third-that that was how he felt when he woke up and went to sleep every day and night. He was afraid of what they would think. Would they still believe him to be the same knuckle-headed-wide-grinning boy? No, they wouldn't. He cared deeply of his image.

But, he could see that it was slowly killing him...six feet under. Every time he looked in the mirror he would make Kyuubi's chakura slice it-making a shard of glass cut tan skin. Every single time and it was no exception for when he fought Haku. He held off his cravings until he thought Sasuke was out of the way then let the cravings run wild. He shattered every mirror until the last and then forced it down again. He talked with Haku then when he left, he destroyed the last one without the fox's chakura. Causing his hand to guise out blood.

No one noticed his blood. No one ever noticed. Until Aito. So when he was put on a solo mision to deliver a package, he accepted for the first time full-heartily.

That was until, this happened.

The blond leaped with his arms to the other side of the forest floor breathing hard. He had just escaped from Death's talons but he needed to rest. So he feel to sleep.

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Waking up with a groggy attitude, he soon became fully alert when he looked at his surroundings. Trees every where he turned. He had forgotten his way. He was Lost.

First Chappy up!

second coming soon.