This is also from Jasper's POV.
I was reading New Moon for like the 20th time, and I thought what was going on in Jasper's head when he tried to kill Bella and of course what happened when he ran out of the room? I have to say I always feel bad for Jasper. In the books he's this poor man who is ashamed of himself. I feel soooo bad for him!
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, if I did Rosalie would, by some miracle, have a baby with Emmett!
Jasper's POV
Alice was going all out for Bella's birthday party. I let her prepare, and stayed out of her way. But in the pit of my stomach I felt something horrible was going to happen.
LATER ON AT THE PARTY
Bella was opening presents, I could feel that she was grateful for them but a little miffed that Alice went a little overboard. Bella started to opening up Alice and Edward's when I smelt it. I was wonderful so tempting.
My animal instincts took over and I lunged at Bella. Edward blocked my path to her by pushing her away from me. I was pissed. Why was he stopping me from our food source?
I attacked him. I needed her blood. I hadn't tasted a human's blood in a while. I longed to taste the sweet liquid on my tongue. Not animal blood which tasted bland and had almost no sweetness to it.
I felt someone grab me from behind. It was Emmett, even though I didn't look at him I could tell. Only one person in the "family" was that strong. I stared at Bella; I could tell she was in shock.
I heard Carlisle say,"Emmett, Rose, get Jasper outside."
He was always so calm, it disgusted me. Esme opened the back door as Emmett wrestled me out. Emmett and Rosalie ran and took me about a mile and a half away from the house.
My guilt hit me like a ton of bricks. I collapsed on my knees. I thought back to all my thoughts that had previously happened after Bella cut her finger. How could I have tried to kill her like that?
"Dude, Jasper, you need to calm down." I heard Emmett say.
I couldn't though; I knew Rosalie was feeling pity for me, as was Emmett. "Just can you leave me alone." I asked.
"Sure.", I heard Rosalie whisper, and she and Emmett ran back to the house.
I felt so weak. After about 4 minutes, I heard Alice walk up to me. "I feel so weak." I said.
Alice was the only person I would tell that to. She didn't need to say anything. She sat on her legs looked me strait in the eyes. Her emotions told me everything.
I don't like my "gift" it makes me feel like I'm intruding on someone, usually I cursed my power. Except, today I was grateful to have it, because sometimes, words are meaningless.
Just looking into Alice's stunning golden eyes, I knew that my whole family would forgive me.