A part of Annaliese's complex charisma
relies on the undercurrent of despair in her voice:
the same emotion she tries to smother
yet somehow, it still bubbles from her chest
to arise from her throat
and she can barely control herself.
A bark here, and a snarl there
fueled by the anger Annaliese held up in court,
saturated with earthy reds and rich gold and bleak grays,
backed up by the fiery depths of the hole where her heart should've been,
create the intricate portrait
of the lioness woman - - -
ferocious and fearful
prideful and petty
vulnerable and vigilant - - -
who shows her true conniving colors
when it best suits her needs.
Loneliness grabs her by the shoulders
and it shakes her
but she does not let vertigo overcome her
because she can rise above it
like a legendary phoenix
(she makes it look easy,
with the kind of poised, guarded grace
reserved for supermodels,
trained to look beautiful).
Annaliese's looks were a construct,
a fact she made obvious by the way she carries herself,
to fool all who succumbed to her magnetism
into believing her purity.
She met her match in Cal Lightman,
and the sparks flew
when he sauntered onto campus of Middleton Law
as a guest speaker - - -
everyone in a two mile radius of their
initial meeting, an intense showdown
where their eyes met
and they stared in such a deep way,
everyone who walked by
couldn't help but be mesmerized by how they
mirrored each other,
acting like predators trying to stalk their prey.
The tableau in which they stood, firing questions at each other;
their ferocity, their tense scoping out of each other - - -
frightening yet beautiful in its chilling severity - - -
was thick enough to be cut with a knife.
Not one of the students
questioned their meeting,
because it seemed like Annaliese's
isolated iciness could finally thaw.
Cal burned bright like the sun,
A golden heat radiating
from his very existence
which clashed royally
with Annaliese's ice;
she flinched every time
Cal opened his mouth
to pose a question
that sounded harmless
to the untrained ear
but they hit a nerve
that got Annaliese spinning, reeling, afraid- - -
she couldn't breathe, as if the wind
had been knocked out of her very lungs.
She scurried away to teach her next class,
but Cal followed like a smug puppy with an agenda to push.
Annaliese ignored him with the furor
of a guilty congressman trying to hide a scandal.
Cal overstayed his welcome,
even after his numerous guest lectures
spread out over the days
had ended;
Annaliese's group
(Wes, Connor,
Laurel, Michaela,
even Asher,
saw it coming
from a few miles away)
could pinpoint the exact moment of
her impending breakdown
down to the second,
Annaliese's subtlety
melted away in his presence,
and she was so thrown off course
that her compass was affected even after classes,
a rare feat;
she was smothered by his accent
and falling apart with his biting remarks
that she could weakly fight against.
Away from prying, watchful eyes
Annaliese begged the question:
"What could you possibly want from me?"
Cal smirked, "Forgiveness."
There was something in Annaliese's eyes - - -
a flickering of emotion,
and Cal's assured that it's fear and ferocity
all mixed together
by the way her lips twitched
and the way her shoulders tensed after setting them into place,
defiance coloring her posture- - -
that said everything Cal needed to know.
"I'll come back when you're in a better mood;
I don't give up on getting the forgiveness I deserve."
Annaliese fired back, "I don't give forgiveness out very easily"
and Cal's face said that he accepted the challenge.
