I never meant for this to happen. I know it doesn't make much of a difference, because it did happen, but you have to believe me – I didn't mean for things to turn out this way.
It was just a chain of events that lead to one another. No one could have foreseen this happening.
At least, that's what I tell myself. If I don't, I know I'll go mad.
The stories they'll write in textbooks- don't believe them. It didn't happen like that. Trust me. Please, for the love of Merlin, someone just believe me. I didn't want this to happen.
Maybe if I had just not given into temptation, not done it, everything would have turned out all right. But then again, maybe it wouldn't have. Maybe things would have been worse.
I'll never forget that one incredible summer. That summer, he introduced me to so many things. Now, I see the world in shades of grey. There is no black and white, good and evil- simply people who win and people who lose.
And it's the winners that write the history; portray themselves as the 'good guys.' To find out the real truth, what really happened, you have to read between the lines.
So I'm writing this to keep my sanity, to put down what really happened. And I have to believe that it was irresistible; otherwise, how could I live or die knowing what I did.
This is my story.
Yes, I changed the prologue. I have a different thread for this story to go along now. I think this is going to be one of my best stories yet. Chapters might come out slowly- I write them when inspiration strikes, then keep them for a bit to revise or rewrite. Sometimes I even get a whole new idea for the chapter. Like this.