I saw him. Our eyes barely met each other. He was taller than me, about 6'5". But he leaned down to talk to me. I was about 5'7" but I never felt inferior to him. It was like we were brothers but the truth is that we were more than brothers. We were in fact lovers. But nothing sexual, just a kiss here or a hug there. No one knew about our secret love. But we kept it well. His name was Barret Wallace and he loved me and I loved him. Every time Yuffie came or Tifa came I would pretend that I liked them but the secret of the matter is that I liked him. And we had our secret spot in Midgar where no one would find us. It was scary sometimes to think that someone would find us there. Other than the monsters, we were all alone. We'd both have to fight off some monsters once in a while but they were so easily defeatable that we never thought our secret place was much of a hardship. We usually met at night time at the abandoned train yard. Usually we would talk about anything that was bothering anyone of us. I'd usually talk about wanting to be together in public no matter what. And he would always talk about wanting to see Marlene more often but not getting the chance. Often I would wonder if he really did love me. Sometimes he would talk to girls and I would hate them because they could be with Barret if they wanted to and it wouldn't be a problem. But for us, it would be a problem. It was always like this when I liked a man. If anyone ever liked me though, he was the first. I liked boys ever since I could remember, I'd pretend I liked Tifa, when I was little but really I liked the other boys. I can remember them playing outside with her, I wanted to be Tifa, she was always around boys. But the truth of the matter is that I always kept to myself. I felt awful, and the worst part was that no one knew, not my mother, not my friends, no one. My mother would always talk me into talking to girls but I would just ignore her. I felt bad that my mother had to die not knowing the truth, but that's the way it was. And I have a feeling that is how it would always be.