Dean was sitting alone in another motel room, Soulless Sam went out for a walk after Dean told him he was heartless for not caring. Dean knew Sam wasn't upset because his brother couldn't feel it's more like Dean told him to leave for awhile so he could think. Which is what he was doing before a certain angel popped in to comfort him.

"Hello Dean" came a gravely voice, Dean looked up to see two very familiar ocean blue eyes. "Why do you seem upset" Castiel asked.

Dean sighed " 'cause Cas Sam has no soul" he said regretting the way his voice cracked. "he's not even my brother anymore, he doesn't care anymore" he said wiping the tear that fell.

"Dean I..." Castiel started but was cut off. Dean turned to look at him.

"Do you know what he said to me the other day" Dean started to slowly walk toward Cas. "He said that in the year he was back he kill innocent people, people who did nothing to die and he didn't even hesitate" he was now a foot away from Castiel "Who does that, who not even you an angel could kill an innocent person an not feel guilty about it. Him he feels nothing not a fucking thing." he stopped when he was inches for Castiel.

"Dean angels are as you said suppose to give mercy" Castiel stated "Sam isn't an angel the only thing he had was his soul if I were to become human I would only lose my grace, but I would still have a soul." he cupped Deans cheek wiping away another tear. "I am very sorry about your brother but as I said before I do not know how to retrieve his soul, and you know I would if I could" he said but Dean turned away in anger.

He sat down on his bed and glared up at Cas "then what the fuck am I suppose to do?" he asked "Am I suppose to act like everything is normal and pretend that if I'd die he would care." he said and Castiel sat down next to him.

"Don't talk that way I would never let you die again" Castiel said placing a hand on Dean shoulder, but Dean ripped it away.

"I don't care if you won't it's the fact that my own flesh and blood would rather be a great hunter than be able to feel emotion again!" he yelled getting up and walking away from Castiel "I care Cas I do so tell me how am I suppose to care for someone who doesn't care for me" he said turning around to see Castiel wiping away his own tears. "Oh god Cas I didn't mean it" he said walking toward him, but Castiel stood and walked away leaving the room. Dean ran after him "Cas wait please"

"What Dean, what am I suppose to wait for!" Castiel yelled the pitch of his voice a little higher then normal. "the only thing you want is Sam to feel again to care and I've tried oh believe me I've tried to find ways to get his soul back to make you happy!" he cried.

Dean then wrapped his arms around Castiel "You make me happy" he said and he felt his angel break down in his arms, but Castiel pushed him away.

"I feel so different after that short time being human I... I have so many feelings bolted up inside that never bothered me before, but now... now that I know what they are I know what guilt feels like it's been eating away at me!" he cried "I burned my own brother Dean and then let him get locked in the cage with Lucifer, and god know what he's doing to the angel that wanted to kill him for so long. Not only did I throw Michael in the pit I let Gabriel die the only brother who actually cared a little for me!" he looked down. "And now that Sam has no soul I feel... as though I'm losing you to" he whispered.

Dean felt like shit now "Oh Cas you'll never lose me, I'm sorry for what I said" hugging Castiel.

"Dean are you done thinking" He heard Sam yell as he approached them. Shit this isn't gonna go well is it he thought to himself as he pulled back from his hug, Castiel hung his head. "Hey Castiel whats up with you" he asked. Fuck me Dean thought.

Castiel glared at Sam "Get bent you dick!" he shouted then disappeared. Dean and Sam were both shocked at his response.

"What the fuck happened to him" Sam asked, Dean shook his head and walked away. "What?"

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This was the hundredth Deans called Cas and he still wont pick up. "Come on Cas pick up" he said.

"Hello?" he heard Cas on the other end.

"Cas?" Dean said

"Dean" Castiel said desperately

"Cas whats wrong where are you"

"Dean I need you I... Balthazar"

"Cas, Cas where are you"

" I... I'm not sure, I think Kansas near your old house in an abandoned hospital"

"Okay we're not that faraway I'll find you alright Cas... Cas?"

" Castiel, Castiel what have I told you?" Dean heard someone in the back round then the line went dead.

"Castiel Cas, Shit" he said the walked back into the room "Get packed we're leaving" he said throwing bag at Sam.

"What, why Dean you need rest" Sam said.

"I said we're leaving!" Dean yelled Grabbing his bag and walking out to the car.

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Sorry it's a bit short there will be more though so please review. :)