This drabble will make a lot more sense if you read Fire and Ice by GinaeEvans. Contains mild spoilers. I don't own DMC.
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My POV:
I sat in my room at Devil May Cry, listening to some music I download on my laptop. Currently 'Somewhere I Belong' by Linkin Park played through the speakers. I sighed as emotions coiled in my chest and absently chewed my nails. I felt so alone. This whole ordeal had been foisted upon me and all I wanted was to get away from it as far as humanly possible.
Though I needed Vergil and Dante's help first. Besides I doubt Vergil would let me leave him. I know we've spent alot of time together these last few months and I like him, but he's so controlling. It scares me.
Does he love me? Can he love me?
He seems more interested in owning me than anything else. I feel like his property. A tear escapes and rolls down my cheek. I'm so conflicted.
He's cute and I've become so smitten towards him, but that can't change the fact that this is a toxic relationship.
He's not even my boyfriend.
He's my Master.
I run my hand over my face. Dante scares me too.
'Don't betray my brother,' he had warned and his eyes had flashed red.
Would Dante kill me if I left Vergil? After this mess is over, will I be allowed to have free will again? More tears come. I'm at everyone's mercy and no one truely cares how I feel. I have no say in anything.
Vergil and I were friends. He was protecting me.
Now suddenly I'm his mate and his servant.
I wonder if Vergil knows or cares how his behaviour affects me. I love him, but I wish I didn't. It would make the pain sting less.
Even now, I miss him and wait for him to return from a job. And at the same time, I dread having to be near him. I can't be with a man that views me as a possession. Or does he? I can't tell sometimes with him.
I don't feel loved by him. I just feel hollow and alone.
I shake my head and cry some more, glad that no one is around to hear me. "God, help me." I whisper.
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I cried while I wrote this.