I don't understand.
Why do you lash out?
Why do you have to become him?
So angry, bloodthirsty
A monster
And then the pain starts.
Not for you, but for me.
At first, I try to fight back,
But you're too strong.
I can never stop you. I'll never be able.
And it hurts, it always hurts.
You are always so brutal.
But suddenly, it stops.
Like a switch,
You are back.
So caring, loving
My Russia
And you don't remember
Anything
But when you see me bloodied
You are sorry. You cry.
You heal me.
But it still doesn't change anything.
You will never change. You can't change.
And it'll become an endless cycle of hurt.
I love you, Ivan.
But it's not enough.
It never will be.