One last time for Love- Chapter One
Notes: Thanks for all the great reviews; they have been very helpful, Picking up where we left off in 'One last Time with Feeling' but 3 years later…
Points of View from a lonely heart
The Doctor's POV
It's been three years, three years of hell. I thought I'd get over it…how wrong I was. I never found another companion, never one like Rose; no one will ever like be like her. I think about her all the time, I keep telling myself it was for the best but is the best always meant to make me feel like this? My nightmares of the Time War have been replaced by equally heart breaking thoughts of my life without Rose. Sometimes, I wonder if she still feels the same, in three years, people can change a lot. I don't know what Jackie's told her but its probly turned her against me…I don't blame her anyway. I should have stood up to Jackie, but I didn't, and I can't change what's happened already, though I wish I really could! However much she might hate me I hope she can at least try to understand, but I doubt it. I wonder what Julia's up too, she must be at least 16 or 17 now. Most people would say where all the time has gone! It's been going through my head at a complete standstill. But earth goes on…that's how they survive. My Rose is 22 now, I've been keeping track, she kept a calendar in her room to keep track of earth days, and even her clothes are still in the wardrobe. It's like she's still here but she's not. Even the TARDIS misses her and that is unusual especially as she was jealous of Rose on her first arrival. I can only remember the laugh and smile of the 19 year old Rose. 900 years of death, I can handle, 3 years without the love of my life….i might as well be dead.
Rose's POV
It's been three years, god it seems like 100, maybe because I'm used to travelling in the TARDIS, but I shouldn't, I haven't seen it for 3 years. When mum told me he'd gone I cried solidly for hours, when I calmed down, I saw the bracelet he'd given me I cried for hours more. I honestly swear that it hasn't left my hand. I'm not religious or anything but I pray every night he'll come back, I can't go to him because he took my key, sometimes, I hate him for it. I spent months just looking for it because I thought I'd lost it, but then mum told me everything, or her version of events, she told me the doctor left as soon as I had the accident, 'there was no trace of him' she said, but I can remember him being there. And the bracelet, that's on my wrist right now, and I know it belongs to the doctor, I've seen him with it; I think she's lying, but who is there to ask? She won't tell me why he just went, I didn't think he would ever do that to me…but maybe I was wrong. Lately, I've been having dreams, that I'm back in the hospital, my vision is blurred and my mum or the doctor aren't there, though there is a figure, a girl, with short brown hair, her face is hazy but she is talking to me, what she's saying I have no idea but if I find this girl, if she's real, I can find the doctor. Mum tells me there're stupid dreams but she has that look in her eye. It's been 3 years and yet I can still smell his jacket, and feel his hand comfortably in mine but I pray that one day it will be.
Julia's POV
It's been three years since that blue box thing disappeared, even to this day I haven't worked out how but I've been doing my homework. At the time I was 14, intrigued, it's a Time Machine, a TARDIS. I haven't told anyone, they'd just think I'm crazy which would seem to make perfect sense. Science and the impossible put aside, I still can't believe that that doctor would say all that heart warming stuff about loving this girl and then leave her, just because her mother said so, mind you, Mrs Tyler never looked like one to argue with. A lot has happened since then, I'm now 17 and starting my A Levels. I have a lot to think about but the whole situation has stayed put in my head. Something tells me it's not the end, especially as I have the key to the TARDIS machine thing. I assume it was Roses but I never saw him take it but when he tossed it to the ground he made it pretty clear he never wanted to be found, I suppose I should return it but how? This is London and Tyler is a popular name and I don't think Mrs Tyler ever wants Rose to know the truth that he loves her, and he didn't run away. It can't stay like this, I don't know where they are but I think the key will help me. If it can open the machine that does more than you could even imagine, surely it could find its owner. I know I might not be important but the Doctor and Rose Tyler are and I'm going to try. After all this time, it has to mean something because I haven't seen these people for years and yet I'm still feeling connected. This isn't the end and I think the two lonely hearts out there agree with me.
Was it rubbish? I've got a sinking feeling it is, if you think it is, don't be too harsh but just say the word!