AU. OOC. You have been warned. AlicexJasper BellaxEdward RosaliexEmmett EsmexCarlise.
"My head feels weak and suddenly It's clear to see it's not them but me Who's lost my self-identity"-Waste of Paint by Bright Eyes.
Disclaimer: I do not own No Doubt, Bright Eyes, Mercades, or Twilight or any charcters in it.
'Just one bite wont hurt' I thought as I breathed in the intoxicating sent of Kade Jackton.
"Adair Demetria Scarlett Lacey Reed Cullen, don't you dare! What would Carlise think!? Do you want to break Esme's heart!?" Alice's Stern yet sweet voice called out, only loud enough for my ears to hear. I stopped dead in me tracks. I turned around to face the petite, pixie-like Alice and the tall, god-like Edward.
'Oh great, Im in for it now.' I thought to myself.
"Damn right!" Edward read my mind and answered my thought. I hated the fact that Edward could read minds. Nothing was safe, even in my head.
"What were you thinking!? In front of all these people!" Edward angrily asked.
"I-I...I'm stupid." I replied, knowing there was no good response.
"Oh, its okay. Don't be so hard on yourself. Your thirst just got the better of you. Don't worry, we all had the same problem." she hugged me.
"Yeah as newborns." I curtly replied.
"No. Jasper has the same problem and hes 166. And Edward almost massacred over 20 people just to drink Bella's blood. Trust me your not the only one." Alice reassured me.
Edward scowled at Alice. He hated to be reminded of that. Alice's arms were still wrapped around me as Bella, Emmett, Jasper, and Rosalie walked up to us.
'I sense shame.' Jasper thought.
"You're right Jasper." Edward replied to his thought.
"What happened?" Bella asked.
"Lacey just had a little mishap. Everything is okay, nothing to worry about. Lets go." Alice answered before Edward had the chance to even open his mouth. Bella, Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmett murmured to each other all the way to the cars. Edward, Bella, Alice, and Jasper climbed into the Shiny, silver Volvo as Emmett, Rosalie, and I got into the white Mustang. Rosalie turned around in her seat as Emmett started the car.
"What happened?"
I shamefully looked out the window. "I was weak."
"Aw, Don't be so hard on yourself, kid." Emmett looked at me from his rear view mirror.
I looked away.
"Who?" Rosalie persuaded.
"Kade Jackton"
She smiled. He was cute. And she knew it.
"NO BOYS ALLOWED!" Alice half-yelled, but to a vampires sensitive ears, it was yelling. She gently slammed the door on Jasper.
"You get kicked out?" Emmett asked Jasper with a smirk as he neared his obstacle in the hallway.
"Girl talk." Jasper replied.
"Oh. Wanna eavesdrop?" Emmett asked.
"Nah, its probably boring." Jasper replied as they walked the length of the hall and into the unused kitchen.
Alice sat next to me on the red couch in her and Jasper's room. Sitting on the other side of me was Rosalie and on the floor in front of me sat Bella. They all stared at me, intent on getting out the thoughts that plagued my mind.
"So..." Alice shattered the silence.
"So what?" I responded.
"Kade..."
"what about Kade"
Alice sighed. "You almost bit him today! There must be something"
I stared down in embarrassment. "Maybe"
Rosalie laughed and Bella smiled.
"Why?" Alice asked.
"Well, hes cute, that's for sure. He's really nice too. Not to mention funny. And, get this, hes not scared of us! Well, of course kinda of Emmett, but who wouldnt be...Hes...I cant even describe it! My heart feels weird, which is strange because its dead. I dont get it but he makes me feels so...good. Odd but good." I carried on, listing reasons.
They all smiled. I sighed a I squeezed a pillow that was encaged in my arms.
"This is almost like Edward and Bella!" Rosalie said.
Alice giggled. "Yeah"
If Bella hadn't been a vampire, her cheeks would be burning, as would mine.
"Is that it?" I asked, hoping it would be a yes.
"Hmmm, I guess. Just don't bite him. When you get the urge, leave immediately. Just go sit in the car or something. Or just don't breathe." Alice instructed me. I nodded in response.
"Edward, what happened? They wont tell us!" Emmett pleaded for Edward to tell him of the days event.
"You heard her. She was weak. That's all." Edward replied.
"I need details"
"She almost bit Kade Jackton."
"What were they talking about in Alice's room?"
"What happened today."
"Details..."
"She really likes him. It seems more like love by the way she described it and thought about it. Now Bella is about to hold her down while Alice and Rosalie give her a makeover." Edward laughed. "You guys are wanted by Alice."
Jasper lightly knocked on the door to the room he shared with Alice. Alice quickly answered the door and dragged them in.
'You too Edward!'Alice sent out a telepathic reminder. She heard a sigh behind her as Edward entered the room.
"Okay, so were giving Lacey a make over and we need a guys opinion. Which haircut?" She asked as she held out magazines with tons of different hairstyles.
"I think this one." Emmett pointed to a picture of a black hair girl who looked much like Lacey, only not as sunning. Her hair was very long, much like Lacey, but the top was layered.
"Yeah." Jasper agreed.
"I like it." Edward agreed.
"Brookelle it is!" Alice called out as she picked up her scissors and danced over towards me.
"Can we leave now?" Edward asked impatiently.
"Everyone but Jasper." She replied. Emmett snickered as he and Edward left.
"Why?" he whined.
"Because she wont settle down!" Alice glared at me.
"Fine..." he reluctantly agreed. Alice smiled her brilliant smile and kissed him in the cheek before rushing to me. I felt immediately calmer. Damn Jasper. Alice began to cut and tease my hair as Bella painted my nails while Rosalie did my make and eyebrows and Jasper...stood there. I let out a soft, low growl, letting everyone know that even though Jasper was controlling my emotions and making me calmer, I still wasn't happy about this. My three sisters all glared at me while Jasper laughed.
"Done!" Bella capped the nail polish.
"Done!" Rosalie capped the lipstick.
"Done!" Alice shook out my hair.
"Done!" Jasper laughed as he fled the room.
"Lets go see it!" Alice excitedly dragged me to the full length mirror on the side of her armour. I had to admit, it wasn't bad. "How do you like it?" She asked. I didn't answer, still trying to be mad about it.
"Do we have to get Edward in here?" Rosalie asked.
"No. I...actually...kinda...like it." I stubbornly replied.
They all smiled. "Lets go show everyone!" Bella said as she raced down the stairs.
"Everyone in the living room please!" She softly called out. Within seconds, the whole Cullen coven was seated in the living room, facing the staircase. Rosalie and Alice stood at the bottom of the staircase.
"Presenting the new and improved Adair Demetria Scarlett Lacey Reed Cullen!" Rosalie announced as I walked down the stairs.
"Ta-da!" Alice sang. An array of "Wow"s filled the room. The corners of my mouth curled as I tried to hide a smile. I did look better. I walked into the room and all eyes were on me. Usually I hated it, but today it was nice. Once the excitement had settled, Carlise stood up.
"Esme and I are going out, so act your vampire age, not your human age!" Carlise happily warned as he and Esme slipped out the back door.
"So that means it beddy-by time for Baby Bella!" Emmett poked fun at the fact that Bella was only two. She scowled at him. Rosalie gracefully appeared by Emmett's side with a seductive look in her eyes and planted a kiss on his cold lips. She slowly made her way up the stair to her and Emmett's room, with Emmett in tow.
"Were going to the Meadow." Edward informed those who remained in the room as he pulled Bella out the door. Alice and Jasper still sat on the couch. They only looked into each other faces, yet the moment was so private, I felt I had to look away. Damn it, it sucked being the outcast.
"I'm going to the river." I announced as I delicately stomped out of the house. I ran, so it only took me a second to get there. I sat on a log and fiddled with the necklace Jasper had given me for my "birthday". I always found it funny how it seemed to calm me down. I don't know why I was this upset. Probably because Rosalie has Emmett, Alice has Jasper, Bella had Edward, and Esme had Carlise, and I had no one. Lovely. I sat there until I heard Carlise's Mercedes pull into the driveway. I quickly ran into my room and layed on my couch, listening to my favorite CD; Rock Steady by No Doubt. I heard a light tap at the door. I paused the music.
"Can I come in?" Esme's sweet voice sang.
"Sure." I answered.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm dead and I have no soul, but other than that, just peachy." Esme laughed the most musical laugh, almost like the tinkling of silver bells. "Alice told me what happened today"
I rolled my eyes and sighed.
"Its okay. I bet you feels pretty lonely." She replied to my expression. I nodded.
"Well, just know that there is someone out there for you. Just look at Edward. After 124 years, he finally found someone."
"I guess."
Esme pushed a hair away from my forehead and smiled at me. "I love you."
"Love you too." I said, trying to sound cheerful. She got up and smiled at me once more before closing the door.
"Goodnight!" I heard Alice yell. A chorus of goodnights filled the house in reply. All except mine. It was never a "goodnight" for me. It was always lonely, especially when you cant sleep. Just as I layed my head back, Alice burst in my room, pulling Jasper with her. "Make her happy!" She sweetly demanded of Jasper. He frowned.
"Alice, my powers can only help a little bit. You go, I'll be back." he replied. Alice "humphed" as she silently stormed out of the room.
"Hey kid." Japer sat beside me.
"Hey Jazz." I replied, making room for him.
"Its okay, don't beat yourself up about it."
"Its not really that"
He cocked his head, trying to think about what else could have caused my dismay.
"I guess I'm just a little lonely." I answered his unasked question.
"Oh. I know how you feel."
"You haven't felt that way in decades."
"I feel it now. I can feel you emotions, remember"
I laughed.
"When I'm around you and Kade, I get this feeling that he really digs you." Jasper smiled and I back. He toussled my hair.
"Love ya, kid." He said, then kissed my cheek. "Decentnight."
I smiled. "I think tonight will be a goodnight."
"Good." He said as he closed the door behind him.
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