It happened again last night. You were explaining evolution to me, but I interrupted with a question you thought was stupid. You stopped talking and sighed. I asked you what you were going to say, but you refused to tell me. I kept asking until you snapped at me. I begged you to calm down, but you snapped again. I ran out of the lab crying and you punched the wall.
How does this keep happening?
I don't mean to be so stupid. I really don't. I want to learn and become a professor like Professor Juniper one day. Sometimes the information doesn't sink in; you found that out during our childhood.
I just wish you didn't get angry with me so easily.
I've tried to be smart for you. I even bought glasses and spoke like you did. You scoffed and shook your head at that and told me to stop being an idiot. That hurt, Cheren. I try so hard for you. I idolize you.
I know now how immature and silly I can be, but you have your flaws too. You have temper issues and take everything too seriously. White says we're the perfect old married couple. What does she mean by that? Does she mean because we fight all the time?
You've always fixed my owwies and helped me when I was stuck in a difficult situation. White was the one that saved my Munna, but you were the one to cheer me up afterwards. You make me feel like a dead weight dragging behind you sometimes, but others you make me feel like your first priority. I like those rare times.
I cry and sniffle under my purple sheets. I'm such a baby. I'm a stupid, silly nincompoop with an ugly hat. I wish you loved me as much as I love you. There, I said it! I LOVE YOU, CHEREN. I want to say that, but I'm too shy and scared of what you'll do. Will you laugh at me? Will you say "no" straight away? White found that Martin guy from the Ferris wheel; why can't we be together?
Am I not good enough for you?
Will I ever be good enough for you, Cheren?