she shoved me calling me a tranny while walking off with Fitz and another unnamed girl. I dusted myself off and turned away from there direction I could see Eli and Clare dancing in the distance, he slowly twirled her as they gazed lovelingly into each other eyes I wanted that but who would want me? Girls aren't gunna line up to kiss me a transgender freak. It was just easier if I was born in a guys body why god? Why did you do this to me I questioned. Couples danced people laughed and smiled why did I come to the dance If the only thing I'm going to do is sulk.
I walked away from the dance floor from the lights and the blaring music the song was to peppy for my mood, a girl singing baby on repeat. While nearing the doors to get in the halls I see my brother making out with some girl. I smiled a bit and walked the hallways for a while passing my locker several times in the back of my head there's a little voice saying that I shouldn't be out here all by myself . There's still people that hate me and would just jump at the chance to hurt me. Fitz came to mind then Owen
I spaced out for a bit. I noticed a figure walking toward me I felt panic shoot through me but it looked curvy like a girls body "hey there hot stuff" Bianca purred at me her eyes glazed over with a emotion I couldn't name contentment?. I don't know its too hard to see the lights were to dim. Bianca got closer she lightly traced my cheek her eyes widen "I've never noticed how cute you looked" she pulled me against her and her lips were on mine. At first sloppy then the smell hit me like a thousand bricks. I noticed the scent was alcohol it overwhelmed me. She furiously moved her lips on mine. She started kissing down my jaw line 'she's drunk' I thought the only reasons she said those things because she's drunk. I felt myself get wet she was rubbing my sides, her hands got dangerously close to my privates. My hands shot out and grabbed her, I didn't have the right equipment a guy should have. "what" she breathed out
"I just… don't" I stuttered out embarrassed I wanted so bad release but it wouldn't feel right with her likes this she nodded "is this okay" she groped at my butt while sucking on my neck. Stiflingly a moan I lightly cupped her breast. I felt a little shy I've never gone this far I haven't even kissed a girl before this. She arched her back, she came back up we kissed this time she let me mouth. It tasted like alcohol. I felt guiltily doing this. If she was sober she would be disgusted. A sensation near my legs was getting harder to ignore.
I was just down to my shirt, she grabbed my hand with a impatient look on her face. Pulled them up her dress, I pulled my hand back while backing away "Bianca no" she looked annoyed "I thought you liked me" she asked, crossing her arms. I felt a wave of sadness hit me I just I.. couldn't. I turned on my heel and ran "wait…" I heard Bianca mumble.
Tomorrow at school she was going to fucking kill me. I stood on the school steps I checked the my phone, just a hour left till the dances over. Sitting down I spaced out
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"hey bro" I turned my head at the sound of drew's voice
"lets go home" I mumbled "is ever-" he was cut of by the honking of moms van as me and drew approached the grey van "Adam" I looked back to see Bianca holding my jacket.
"ignore her"