"It's okay to love them both. I did" My heart sunk as her words hit me. Stefan. What have I done, I became the one thing I didn't ever want to be, Katherine.
My eyes collided with Damon's as she left and the colour began fading into his face once more making him healthy driving the poison from his body, from his heart.
"Elena" Damon went to move from where he leaned on his bed half trying to prop himself up among the pillows and sheets where he laid. Damon staggered on his arms and I rushed to his side carefully laying him down again making sure he rested.
"I need to see Stefan" Damon breathed in staggered breaths clutching his arm where the bite first was and lifting it softly exposing the place where the bite had been, there now was a faint mark softly closing up and the shrunken bruised veins returning to a normal state around it. It was almost healed, Damon was cured he was okay.
"He's with Klaus Damon, he left with Klaus. You need to rest for now we have time, Stefan can wait for now, Rest." I pushed softly to lie Damon down again but he pushed up angry and was off the bed in a flash watching me carefully the way a lion looks at a gazelle or antelope.
"Damon you need to rest" I made my way towards him slowly keeping my eyes firmly locked onto his, now was not the time to play the good guy and die saving Stefan, I had almost lost Damon already today I would not lose him again, not now.
"He's my brother Elena and he's your Boyfriend, the love of your life, you only reason to exist" Damon spat, he was acting the way he always does I let him in and he pushes me away.
"Damon please" I laid my hands on his arms and he calmed immediately but remained tense looking anywhere but at my eyes.
"Damon look at me" I asked my voice pained as the tears rolled down my face and Damon locked eyes with me raising one hand to wipe away my tears, I laid my head into his hand staring into his bright blue eyes.
"Thank you Elena, for not leaving me. Even though it was incredibly stupid of you, you could have been hurt" Damon spoke softly gliding his fingers past my cheek and down my neck to where the bite was from earlier.
"You're Welcome" I whispered, Damon stopped moving his fingers and looked from my eyes to my lips, I knew he like I was, was remembering the kiss I gave to him in the moments I thought I would lose him forever. I knew now how many times it felt like he had lost me every time I had told him he had lost me forever and when it was reversed I couldn't imagine living a day without Damon near me. Damon moved in slowly keeping his gaze with me, the need I felt now was stronger than any other I needed Damon. Feeling like I didn't have him and that he might have been out of my life forever just magnified the love I had for him already.
Damon stopped leaving his lips inches from mine I knew now he was regretting it and about the times he had kissed me and I had rejected him altogether, the times that sparked him losing me. I reached up to Damon staring him full in his eyes and I kissed him pressing my soft lips against his. Damon responded slowly taking his time to savour me like I was doing to him, the kiss was gentle, sweet and needy but I needed Damon. I traced the bottom of Damons lip with my tongue and he opened his mouth willingly letting me in, my hands immediately locked in Damon's hair as his hands moved to rest on my waist tracing soft circles along the fabric of my shirt.
Damon slowly pulled away from me leaning his forehead against mine breathing heavily the same as me. I opened my mouth to speak but Damon once again placed his lips softly on mine before leaning against my forehead again.
"Damon I..." Damon put a hand on my cheek making my lose my words just his touch sent butterfly's to my stomach and sparks along my body igniting every place they touched.
"You are not Katherine, nor will you ever be Katherine" With that he moved and gestured towards the door for me to leave.
"I need a shower, and you need some sleep. Just go to a guest room and make yourself comfortable" Damon didn't look at me again and turned away from me not watching as I left closing the door behind me.
As soon as the door was closed I sighed staring between the doors at different points of the hallway, other rooms I had never visited, Stefan's room and Damon's room behind me. I walked to Stefan's room inhaling the air as I opened the door it smelt of Stefan the sweet natural smell that he always brought with him. I dropped onto his bed that once again never looked like he slept in it, I couldn't help compare the way in which Stefan's room was full of memories and old fashioned shelves, books and boxes to Damon's room where it was black just like his wardrobe choices, the stylish layout and simplistic and the soft bed sheets and walk in bathroom.
Dropping onto Stefan's bed I laid staring longingly at the doorway I don't know what I was waiting for but here I was just waiting, I couldn't sleep because no arm's were there to comfort me and tell me everything was going to be okay when it wasn't. There was nobody to fix my life for me anymore, no-one to tell me what to do and forgive me for the mistakes I made.
I remembered the last words Stefan said to me,
"Listen the other night when Damon was helping Tyler something happened, Tyler started to transform and Damon was bitten."
"He told me not to tell you but I figured if you wanted to talk to him. I wouldn't wait" It was like in that moment he knew Stefan knew that I had feelings for Damon and he was willing to let me act on them just like I haven't been doing because of him.
"Go talk to him, tell him there's still hope" I remember him saying it as I hugged him, it felt like goodbye and I suppose now it was our goodbye.
The way I knew in that moment I loved them both was like being hit by a steam train going full speed ahead, I knew that if it was Damon's last moments I needed him to know how much I cared about him and how much I had come to love him.