"Confession"
is my longest piece yet. It actually began as a gift for a friend,
but then I scrapped that and turned it into just a story of it's
own. I really wanted to do something with this pairing, and with a
certain character coming back as an angel. (The angel here was my
friend's favorite character.)
I actually wrote this in February, yes. I've been holding off posting it. I revised it a few times... & then got lazy with the posting.
All
characters in the story are from Fullmetal Alchemist, and are ©
Hiromu Arakawa & Square-Enix.
Title
comes from a song by the Korean artist J.
Confession
By
Kusabi
After
a long, tiring day of work, nothing sounded nicer than a bath. How
many times did she have to tell the Colonel to get his work done, so
he could go home earlier?
"Or
get ready for a date…" she said aloud.
Sighing,
Riza sank deeper into the tub. She had made a promise to herself to
protect Roy because… well, she couldn't explain it. In the years
since she had met him, this feeling had grown inside of her. At
first, she had suppressed it; denied it. But no matter how much she
tried now, there was no denying this emotion.
"But
you can't wait forever on something that's never going to
happen."
Roy
could have any girl he wanted. Everyone knew that. Even after he lost
an eye, the girls still flocked to him. So why would he turn what
remained of those amazing, dark eyes her way?
Jealousy.
The worst emotion in the entire world… the one she had sworn to
never show. The one she thought she'd never feel.
"Why?"
A
wall inside of her mind burst open. She let the warm tears stream
down her face, and die off in the bath water. Screams filled the
room, echoing off the tile walls.
I
hate emotions.
Upon
returning to his home, Roy checked his planner.
"Date…
daaaaate… daaaaaaaaate… I'm never going to be able to have a
night to myself!"
Exasperated,
he let out a sigh, falling into his armchair. Just how many
girls had he gone on dates with? All of them lead to nowhere anyway –
he just wasn't interested in any of them. What was the point? What
was he trying to prove anyway? He knew the answer, as much he hated
to admit it.
"I'm
just putting on appearances."
The
image of the only one he truly wanted flashed in his mind. Blonde
hair, amber eyes, and a gorgeous smile when she showed it… but it
wasn't the way Riza looked that attracted him to her. How many of
those girls would've protected him like she did? It wasn't just
that… he had told her a million times that she didn't have to
risk so much. No matter how many times he said it, she always
refused.
He
wanted to tell her how he felt. But he, Roy Mustang, was afraid to do
so. It wasn't hard to say "yes" to an empty date. So why did he
not say "no" to any girl who asked him out? That'd be easy too,
right? But with Riza, he didn't want an empty date. She was just so
untouchable, though. There's no way she'd accept me.
"Hey."
Whipping
his head up, Roy gasped. He couldn't believe his eyes. I've
got to be crazy. In front of his fireplace stood the figure of
Maes Hughes, with white wings that glowed brilliantly.
"No,
you're not crazy," he spoke, kindly. "I heard your thoughts…
sounds like you need some love help, eh?"
Nodding,
Roy found himself unable to speak. Hughes… how long had it been
since that Homunculus killed him? How long since Roy had cried in
front of his grave?
The
angel smiled. "It's alright."
It
had been three months since Roy had killed the Fuhrer. Through a
series of grueling trials, his team's names had been cleared. A new
government had surfaced, and everything went on business as usual.
Alchemy
now seemed impossible to him. Every time he tried, he thought of all
the people his alchemy had killed.
At
that point, Roy's status in the military was still a Colonel, but
he had filed for a transfer to northern border patrol, and to have
his state alchemist's license taken away.
"Riza,
I have to do this. I'm not returning until Edward comes back… I
know he will come. You understand, right?"
"I
do, sir… but…"
"You
don't have to call me 'sir' anymore. I'm just a Corporal
now."
"I
don't care, you'll always be the Colonel to me. Just… be
careful… and good luck."
Three
years had gone by. On the day that Roy had returned to visit the
grave of Hughes, the sky roared with that machine of death. There to
fight it, of course, was Edward. But that same day, after the battle,
he left, with Alphonse secretly following after. Once they had gone
to the other side, Roy sealed the gate.
It
was time to get on with his life.
Over
the course of a year, he returned to being a Colonel.
"I
see…"
"Of
course you do," Roy said. "You knew it all anyway, didn't you?"
"Well,"
Hughes laughed, "Angels can't be everywhere at once, can they?
I've been watching over Glacier and Elysia most of the time. I've
checked in on you every so often, but I didn't know the whole
story."
"So
like you. What'd you come to help me with, anyway?"
"I
always said you needed to get married, didn't I?"
Roy
scoffed. "Don't get ahead of yourself."
"The
point is, I know you love Riza… you know you do, and you
need to show it," he said, seriously. "I want to help you out."
"Can't
I do it on my own?" He asked the angel, slightly annoyed.
"Apparently
not," Hughes said, indicating the planner. "You'll never get
her if you keep going on a million dates a week."
Roy
laughed, rising up from his chair. "Yeah, I get it." He picked up
the planner and walked over to the phone.
Everyday,
when Roy walked into the office, she watched him with one eye. Today,
she noticed something odd. He didn't have his usual morning look:
tired, annoyed, and ready to snap at anyone. Instead, he seemed
rested, content, and just… pleasant. But that was only the start of
the shock.
As
soon as he sat down at his desk, he started working on his immensely
large stack of paperwork. Eyes widening, she found herself unable to
stop staring.
"Sir?
Are you okay?"
"I'm
fine," he said, not looking up from the work. "I just want to get
all of this done so I can have more free time."
Havoc
walked in then, looking a little shocked himself. "More time to
date every woman in this city?"
"Hardly,"
Roy retorted, ticked that Havoc had walked in at this moment. Out
of the way, you! "I've cancelled all of my already planned
dates, and I'm not accepting any."
Riza's
blood ran cold. Did he find himself one girl to be with? But that
wouldn't make sense, as he cancelled all of his dates…
"Havoc,
could you excuse us for a moment? The Lieutenant and I have some
important business to discuss."
Underneath
the Colonel's calm demeanor, Havoc could sense urgency in his eyes.
Could he be…? He merely saluted, and left.
Well,
Roy thought, maybe that was lucky. I can tell her now, rather than
later…
"Riza,"
he said, lightly. Her eyes lit up, and a small wave of surprise ran
over her.
He
called me by my first name… what could…
"Riza?"
She
snapped out of her musings. "Ah, yes sir?"
"No
need for formalities," he told her, giving a wave of his hand. "I
have something to tell you… I…" He choked on his words. Why
is it so had to say?
Upon
seeing him so flustered, Riza began to turn red. A dream. This is
a dream. No, Riza, don't jump to conclusions! "Yes… Roy?"
Hearing
her call him "Roy" gave him renewed hope. It had been four years
since she last called him that.
"Hey,"
the angel of Hughes said into Roy's ear. Roy had been told to act
as though he wasn't there, as he was making himself invisible to
Riza. "For a girl like this… you have to show, not tell."
Thanks,
Hughes. You always said you'd push me to the top… and this is
more of "the top" than being the Fuhrer would have ever been.
Getting
up, he braced himself for anything. His feet felt like lead, but he
wouldn't let himself stop. There's no way he could turn back now.
As he began to close the distance between them, he felt his
nervousness evaporate. All the times she had protected him, cared for
him, or showed emotion to him, flowed back into his head. His
confidence was now so high that he just wanted to run at her, but he
refrained from doing so. I wouldn't want to startle her.
"Sir,
what is it?" Riza asked, puzzled. At this point, Roy was standing
in front of her desk, with a sweet smile on his face. Oh, what that
smile did to her. It could make her entire day, no matter if it was
directed at her or not. How many years has it been since I saw
that look?
"It's
not much, it's just that…" he trailed off, and began leaning in
towards her. It only took a few seconds, but to Roy, nothing could
have taken longer.
Finally,
their lips touched. Riza couldn't believe it. After years… Roy
Mustang was returning her secret affections. She panicked for a brief
second, but gave in to her emotions, and began to kiss back.
After
a few moments, they broke away, grinning like mad at each other.
"I'm
in love with you, Riza," Roy said lightly.
Eyes
watering out of joy, Riza nodded. "I love you too, Roy."
Hovering
above them, the angel of Hughes smiled. "Well," he said to
himself, "Looks like my work here is done. The best of luck to both
of you."
