Diclaimer: I don't own Hikaru no Go. It belongs to Obata-sensei and Hotta-sensei..
Pairings: Hikaru and Sai
Summary: You're my dear little brother, Hikaru-kun, and just that...
Warning: I'm not a fan of this pair, and this is the first time I've written shounen-ai and in English, so there may be some mistakes. Hope you'll enjoy it.
Chapter I: Pain
Night. It was dark and silence. There was just moonlight.
Moon. It shone through the bedroom window. He looked at it and sighed.
He was like the Moon, he thought so, couldn't shine as brightly as the Sun, just reflected other's light. Without the Sun, the Moon was just an useless ball.
Looking at the steady goban staying on the floor, he sighed again. He hadn't touch neither the goban nor the stones for a thousand years. Someday, maybe he'd forget that feeling, the great feeling of placing a stone on a goban. Then, he shook his head. No, that would not happen. How could he possibly forget it? He sighed again, and again...
"Why don't you sleep, Sai?"
He turned around, and faced the boy with two colors in his hair. Smiling slightly with a little sadness, he answered:
"Ghosts never sleep, don't you know?"
The boy's eyes widened. It was silent for a while, then Sai asked:
"Why don't you sleep, Hikaru?"
"You sighed...", said the boy softly.
"Oh , I'm sorry to disturb you. I won't sigh anymore.", he apologised quickly.
Standing up, he came to the window, looking at the moon. Watching him, Hikaru whispered:
"What are you thinking?"
"Nothing."
"You're lying."
"..."
"... I can always tell when you lie to me...", the boy continued saying.
"..."
"Why don't you want to tell me?"
Sai left the window and turned around, he was face-to-face to the boy. He replied very quietly:
"I don't think you're kind of person who cares about others' feeling."
"You're an exception", Hikaru muttered, he smiled warmly.
Sai looked at the boy's face. That smile... he'd never seen that smile on Hikaru's face before. It was kind... and warm... just like... Torajiro... He sighed one more time. Then, after a few minutes, he smiled back:
"Go back to sleep, Hikaru. You'll have to rest for tomorrow."
"I'm not a child anymore!"
The boy grimaced. He got off the bed, and came straight to where Sai was standing.
"What are you doing, Hikaru?", Sai asked in surprised.
Hikaru didn't answered, and he didn't stop, either. He just came straight ahead. Realising what he wanted to do, Sai quickly said:
"Stop, Hikaru, or you'll..."
He suddenly felt a pain in his body.
"...walk right through me...", he sluttered.
It hurt. It hurt a lot. That pain... when Hikaru passed through him... it hurt... just like Sai'd just got a bad cut... Sai stepped back immediately, he knelt, his arms were around his body.
"Sai... what happened...? Why do you...?", Hikaru asked in worry.
"No...th...ing...", Sai mumbled.
"You're lying!", Hikaru cried out loud, "I know you're in pain... I'm sorry..."
"It's... nothing...", Sai said hardly, "... you can... always... walk through me... whenever you want... "
"Even if it hurts you, Sai?", the boy asked sadly.
Sai looked at the boy's face. If he was the Moon, then Hikaru was the Sun. If he was the dark, then Hikaru was the light. And so, of course, everytime Hikaru went through him, he got a pain, but...
"...It's nothing, Hikaru...", he smiled warmly.
Nothing.
End of chap I.
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