Catch Me
If this is love, please don't break me
I'm giving up so just catch me
I knew I should have never fallen for you.
But in all fairness, it couldn't be helped. The smiles, the glances, the laughter.
You're so hypnotizing, whenever I see your perfect smile, your amazing blue eyes, I can't seem to look away. And you don't stop yourself, you don't seem to get it. Every time you smile, do you just think we're friends? Do you even care about me at all?
And what about her? The girl you love. Where's she in this equation? You can't have us both, you know that, but you seem content to do so. It's not fair, but I can't pull myself away.
But in those moments, those little moments when we're together, it's beautiful. I seem myself, I feel at home, I can't stop smiling. And the memories make me smile, even thinking about it now. I even dream about you and your smile.
But I'm scared. I'm scared I'm going to get hurt. It's inevitable, I know, but that doesn't stop the need to be near you, to hear your voice, to see your smile. Why can't it stop?
I always seem to fall for the wrong people – the liars, the cheaters, and now, the taken. And they lead me on, because I'm the pathetic girl they see as an easy flirt. I guess that's what I am, just pathetic, not important.
I remember once you told me I was important, that I was equal with her. But I don't see that now. I'm just shoved into the background again, aren't I? But what do you care if I cry and I hurt? As long as you're happy and she doesn't know it's fine.
But I wish that we could be together. I dream about it, I fantasize about being able to hug you, to kiss you, to tell you 'I love you'. Because that's all I need, someone to love me.
But me being me, no one can love me. I'm messed up.
Every hello ends with a goodbye. I'm dreading that goodbye.
I had to base this on something so pretend it's EdwardxBella though it's really just my feelings. And yes, I know Edward had green eyes as a human.