A/N: This is a story about what Jack is thinking after Locke blew up the sub and what the consequences of Locke being so stupid are.
Disclaimer: Last time I checked, I didn't own LOST, and I don't think I do now either.
The moon shone brightly above, casting shadows across the beach as Jack leaned against one of the trees as he watched the place where the sub had been. A few pieces of it still floated around the area, while others floated out to the sea. He had been staring at the spot for quite some time now, and the Others had gone for orders from Ben. He was sure they had left someone to watch him though. He didn't care though. It wasn't like he was going to even try to get off the island now.
He still didn't believe it. They had been so close… and now it was gone. He wasn't going home. Juliet wasn't going home. No one was going to be saved, and it was all Locke's fault. And all he had had to say was 'sorry'. Well, he was sorry too. Sorry that Locke could be so stupid.
And then there was Kate. She was most likely the person who had led the whole expedition here, even after he had told her not to. It wouldn't be the first time that she hadn't listened to him. In fact, he wasn't even surprised. He should have known that she would come back for him.
His own words haunted him in his mind. "I will come back here for you." He had promised Kate. What would he tell her now?
"It's getting late Jack." A soft voice said behind him. "We should go back now."
Jack glanced behind him, seeing Juliet. The moon gave her blonde hair a slight glow, and her cheeks were tear-stained. She had been crying. Seeing Jack's concerned face made her look down, avoiding his eyes. She didn't want Jack of all people to know she had been crying.
"Not now…" He said, turning back to the ocean.
Juliet came up behind him, and placed a hand on his shoulder. "Why are you still out here?"
He hesitated before he answered.
"I just want to think."
Juliet looked up at him. Jack could see that more tears were forming in her eyes, dangerously close to rolling down her cheek.
"I've come to realize that I'm never going home." Juliet said. "None of us are."
Jack just stood there for a minute, letting her words sink in. Even Juliet had lost hope. Jack had been her last chance to get off this island, and he had failed her. If he ever saw Locke again, he was going to kill him. Jack moved his hand over hers, and turned around to her.
"Why do you say that?" He asked. "Isn't there another boat, or…something?"
Juliet shook her head. "I…I should have known that Ben wasn't going to let us go home."
"It was Locke, not Ben."
"No. Ben…he's always behind it. Ben planned this to happen, I know it."
Jack looked at her for a minute, realizing that she was right. Ben was behind it all.
"I'm sorry." Jack said. "During the surgery I should have…"
"No. No. Jack, this isn't your fault."
"If I would have gone through with the plan of the surgery, this never would have happened."
"Jack…" Juliet said, looking at him.
Jack turned away from her. He knew that this was somewhat his fault. Juliet was just trying to make him feel better about it.
"Can I see Kate again?"
Space
Kate sat on the ground of the room in the exact same spot Jack had left her. He was gone. On his way home by now probably. But she didn't want him to. For one thing, even if he did get back, there was a big chance that no one would be able to find the island again. No one had yet, and Jack didn't know the directions to it.
Another thing was that she would go to jail if they did find the island. She would be locked away, while everyone else would go on living their lives. The truth was, she did want anyone to find the island. It had given her a chance to have freedom again. To get away from the real world. People here didn't look at her as a criminal.
'What am I thinking?' She thought to herself. 'All I'm thinking about is me.'
Everyone else that she had known had a home and people that they wanted to go back to. She was only thinking of herself now. It was a good thing if Jack did bring help back. Everyone would be happy.
Except for her.
But that didn't matter. Everyone would forget about her, and she would spend the rest of her life in jail. She sighed. Maybe she was just meant to spend the rest of her life behind bars. A single tear rolled down her cheek. She hated this…that she of all people was the one who had to go to jail.
Suddenly, she heard the door behind her open. She got up quickly, taking a step back. She didn't want one of the others to see her crying. As she looked up to see who it was, she was dumbstruck.
"Jack?" She said, running up to him. She would have hugged him had there hot been handcuffs on her wrists. "What are you doing here?
Jack didn't move, and just looked down at the ground. Kate's expression turned from happiness to concern. Why wouldn't Jack look up?
"Jack…what happened?"
He stood there for another minute before looking up at her for the first time. "Locke blew it up."
Kate stared at him for a moment. "He blew up the…"
"The submarine." Jack said, finishing her sentence. "We were so close to getting home…"
"It's okay Jack." Kate said.
"No, Kate. It's not." He said. "Now…now no one is going to go home."
Kate shook her head. "You shouldn't have trusted them. I…I shouldn't have told you to."
"No." Jack said. "You shouldn't have come back for me Kate. Why didn't you just leave me?"
"I didn't know you were going home…" She said. "I thought that you were just staying there so that we could go free."
"And why would that be such a terrible thing, Kate?" Jack yelled.
Kate was taken aback both by his yelling, and by what he had said. "Jack, are you even listening to yourself? You're out only doctor Jack. Half of us would be dead if you hadn't been there on the day of the crash. Besides that, you give people hope Jack. You…you don't know how much you mean to everyone. What you mean to me. You're the only person that understands me." She said.
"Why don't you just tell Sawyer everything? I'm sure he would understand you." He said coldly.
Kate searched his eyes, hoping to find an answer to why he was acting this way. She saw a faint trace of guilt and hurt in his eyes at the same time. "What are you talking about Jack? Please tell me what happened. What did they tell you about me and Sawyer?"
"I didn't come here to talk about Sawyer." He said. "I came to tell you that sense I can't go "home" home, I might as well go back to the other island. You can come too if you want."
Kate looked down and took a few steps away from him. "O…okay. How are…how are we going to get back over there?"
"Juliet said that she had a boat. Just a raft, but it will probably get us as far as the other island."
"Juliet?" She asked.
"The blonde lady…she wants to come too. See how we live."
"Oh. Her."
"Do you have a problem with Juliet?" Jack asked, narrowing his eyes.
"No." Kate said. She walked farther away from Jack. She didn't want to be near him right now. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow then."
Jack walked out without saying goodbye.
Kate sat down. She hated this. Jack blamed her for what had happened, and so she blamed herself now. Tomorrow she would have to find out more about what had happened to Jack. He didn't seem…normal. Maybe it had something to do with Juliet. Whatever it was, she was going to find out.
A/N: Thanks for reading and please reveiw!