Hello everyone! This is not my first fic, but it is the first one I've written in a while. I used to write fics about Sailor Moon, one of the awesomest animes ever! Well, now I have caught the Twilight bug and have started writing several stories, hopefully for your enjoyment.

So this story is about my favorite angst-ridden time period ever: Edward's departure in New Moon! I'm truly addicted to fics like this, so I decided to try and write my own version.

Hope you guys like it!

-MissSingItAll

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or anything related to Twilight. Stephenie Meyer owns all.

Bella POV:

They're back.

The one family I thought I'd never see again. The one family that I knew I could never be a part of.

I realized not long after he left me there in the woods that I should have seen it coming. I was holding him, all of them back from everything. I was a weak, pathetic human that no one wanted to babysit and protect. And now, looking at them across the cafeteria at their usual table, this fact was more apparent.

I pulled the hood of my jacket over my mess of brown hair and sunk lower into the corner I was sitting in, alone. Mike, Jessica, and all the others tended to shy away from me now, which was fine by me. I didn't deserve friends.

I contented myself with staring at my knees, knowing that all their eyes were trained on me. I could feel their stares from across the room, curious and hesitant. After a few minutes of staring at the fabric of my jeans, I felt a presence beside me. I already knew who it was.

"Bella?"

"Hello, Alice," I mumbled. I looked up at her slowly through my hair.

There she was, radiant as ever. Her petite figure was slightly hunched over in my direction, and when she met my full gaze she gasped. A look of shock painted her features, followed by a flash of anger, then - and I detested this the most - pity. Her topaz eyes filled with concern.

"Are you...okay?" she almost whispered. I scoffed. Shaking my head, I looked away from her.

"What do you think?" I said in a hard voice. There was silence for a few moments. I finally turned my head back to her to see if she would respond. Her eyes were downcast and sad.

"Well...I would like it very much if you came to sit with us," Alice whispered brokenly. I automatically glanced over at their table.

Their inhuman beauty never ceased to amaze me. Rosalie and Emmett were sitting so close together that their arms were touching, and her hand was wrapped firmly in his. Rosalie had a look of indifference on her timelessly beautiful face, her golden blonde hair piled on top of her head. Emmett looked solemn with his body slumped over instead of sitting proud and strong. Next to Emmett was Jasper, who was sitting next to Alice's empty seat. A pained look was written across his face and his brow furrowed with confusion.

Lastly...Edward. The purple shadows under his eyes were more prominent as he gazed almost past me, looking at me as if I weren't really there. A few strands of his tousled bronze hair fell over the wide expanse of his forehead, and I wanted nothing more than to brush them away. His toned arms hung limply at his sides and stretched past the edge of his dark grey wool jacket. Going over his entire appearance, I saw that he looked...miserable. I couldn't guess why; he seemed perfectly fine when...he left.

"I don't think that's best," I replied, looking back at Alice. She nodded once.

"I knew you'd say that," she muttered, and I almost laughed out loud because she would know, what with her ability to see the future. "But really, Bella. We all missed you. You should at least come and say hi."

"Maybe some other time." I couldn't talk to them, not yet. I slowly stood and straightened up. The hole in my chest was prickling painfully, and I started to breathe heavily. My arms wrapped around torso, trying desperately to stop myself from splitting in two.

"Okay, Bella. I understand. But I want you to know that we do all love - " I didn't hear the rest of what she was saying due to the sharp gasp that left my lips. The hole was full on burning now, and I started to hyperventilate. My breath came in short, painful spurts. I almost watched in slow motion as Alice's eyes widened and she began to reach for me. I couldn't breathe, but I knew that I had to get out. So I pushed past her and ran all the way to the doors leading outside. My eyes were stinging with tears and I let go of my body to search for my keys. I ran blindly, splashing into the shallow puddles that lined the sidewalk. Eventually I caught sight of my big, red truck in the last row of parking spaces. I wrenched the door open and threw myself inside. Shutting the door loudly, I collapsed over the steering wheel and began to sob uncontrollably.

Love. Alice was about to say that they loved me. This was a complete and total lie. Why would they love me? I was a huge burden to their lifestyle. I had to be constantly saved and protected and watched over. If they truly loved me, they would have never left to begin with. All lies.

I don't know how long I sat there, my face wet with tears and my voice hoarse. Suddenly, I heard the bell ring, signaling the end of the day. The students poured out of the doors and made their way to the parking lot. I leaned back in my seat and took a deep breath. I put my key into the ignition and my truck roared to life. As I turned around to start pulling out of the parking space, I saw them standing there by the infamous Volvo. They were all staring at me. Alice looked sorry, and there next to her stood Edward. He had the strangest look on his flawless face. The others, apart from Edward, looked sad as they leaned against the car. I quickly turned around and proceeded to pull out of the space, never looking back at the family that had left me behind.

Edward POV:

As I watched Bella drive off the property, I felt my dead heart sink even lower. I had broken her. I had broken her and stomped on the pieces. She looked so lost and it devastated me even more to know that I was the cause of it. When Alice spoke to her in the cafeteria, she sounded timid and bitter. Her chocolate brown eyes were not bright and deep as I remembered, but dull and lifeless. Bella seemed to fold into herself, leaning meekly against the wall.

This was all my fault. In all honesty I thought that our leaving would help Bella. I wanted her to have a happy, free, normal life. I wanted her to grow and see the world, have children, be able to get everything she deserves. She couldn't do this with me and my dangerous family. I let my angel go, only to watch her fall.

We came back to Forks at the insistence of Alice and Carlisle. But deep down I knew that I would have returned for Bella on my own eventually. I could barely function without her. I took to sitting in my room, curled up in a ball on my black couch. I didn't read or listen to music. My piano remained untouched. After some time, when I desperately needed to hunt, I just ran. And kept on running until I was far from the family. I traveled to different countries, trying to escape the pain. Eventually, I settled on tracking Victoria, just simply to have something to do. She was still out in the world wreaking havoc, and I needed something to throw myself into, where I could leave my thoughts. However, I wasn't really good at tracking, and soon gave up and returned home after being begged by Esme. But everyday, my resolve grew weaker and the pull to go to Bella tugged constantly at my heart. Our return was inevitable.

Edward? Alice's voice cut through my mind. I'm sorry. Let's go home.

I simply nodded and slid into my Volvo wordlessly. The others followed suit. It was in the silence of the car that their thoughts started to bombard me.

My God, we never should have left. Alice was very upset, her thoughts sporadically flipping from one thing to another.

She looks terrible. Edward, man, look what you did. Emmett's blunt words danced through my mind.

I hate to say this, but I pity the poor girl. Rosalie surprised me with the faintest trace of sympathy in her thoughts.

I have never felt such pain, Edward. A human shouldn't be able to tolerate it. Coming from Jasper, this only confirmed the damage I had caused.

We finally pulled up to the house and everyone exited the Volvo except for me. I allowed myself to sit there, staring forward blankly and letting my self-hatred fester. I didn't deserve any sympathy; not after what I had done to my angel.

A/N: Aw, poor Edward! Well, you know what to do. Please review so that I can get better!