Chp.1 Dead to me
Mom Are you okay? .... I waited for her answer but their was just a long-awkward silence, Mom? I said almost in a whisper. She just continued staring into space…I knew she wanted to cry scream or just die but she won't because she just keeps her thoughts and emotions under lock and key… just because she loves me. I feel like crying myself, she didn't deserve this..Never. I start to scan the bruises and cuts on her skin and I know she's in pain inside and out. I just don't understand why…Why he beat her, why he hated her and wanted her to die….and she stayed for years and years because she thought it was good for me to have a dad, but I can tell you now he didn't want me and he didn't care about me and you know I didn't give a damn about him either. I quit caring for all the beer on his breath and all the women he sleeps with or the fact that im not the only child he doesn't care for--- He's absolutely dead to me!.. but he tried to kill my mother and I guess that's what it finally took for her to get me and herself into a car to drive away and never look back…Ever. And now were on our way to my grandmas house--- all the way in Oklahoma and point place= Middle of No Where. This sucks but its better for her and me…The both of us.