Haley's Point of View
I closed my eyes and envision what my life would have been like if you were part of it as my kindred spirit; if I was the one you held in your strong protective arms and in your loving heart. But I was too scared to voice it, to admit to you or even to myself that I had more than friendly feelings toward you; that my love was more than merely that of a best friend, a confidant.
It was YOU...you who have captured my whole heart, my very soul, my entire being without realizing it. And it tore me up to be near you as I put up a false façade of being content with our deep found friendship because your every move and gentle touch sent shivers down my spine and made me come alive. Just seeing you flash your lopsided smile and looking into your intense oceans of blue that are engraved in my memory turn a dismal day into a splendidly brilliant one filled with vibrant colors.
I can't count the endless number of times I replayed everything we did together as well as recall word for word what you said to me or did not say. And as hard as I try to erase or wish my feelings away to the end of the universe so I can protect myself from the possibility of being hurt and feeling pain, I can't. It's as if my heart refuses to return to me without you, my other half; refuses to deny itself someone who can send it soaring to a place unbeknownst to even immortals; a place that makes colorful rainbows and starry skies seem undesirably bleak.
For a brief moment in time, my naiveness led me to believe that I was over you; that I was able to repress my love for you and give it to another, but I was lying to myself. No one will able to replace you in my life and in the depths of my soul. I am certain of this because I constantly find myself comparing every man to you, whether the man was just a friend or a boyfriend without meaning to do so. Although I know that it is unfair to compare people, how can I not? We shared so much history, tears, laughter, but most importantly, each other.
And this makes it extremely difficult to see you with the one you desire. I held back the tears that were constantly threatening to fall as I listened to you talk about her, to say her name with as much love and admiration as I hold for you. But as much as it pained me to know that you are with her, I am grateful that you found her because I would rather live a painful life so you can have happiness, even if it's just for a brief moment. Seeing your gorgeous eyes that can see others for who they really are light up is worth more to me than life itself.
You know me better than I know myself and this terrifies me, because one day, you may discover how I truly feel about you. Although part of me hopes you do, the other part may not be ready for the change or possible consequences, but I am willing to face any of the affects if there was a chance that you were in love with me. And all I can do is wait...wait for the endless possibilities and the twists and turns life may bring.
The end.
I closed my eyes and envision what my life would have been like if you were part of it as my kindred spirit; if I was the one you held in your strong protective arms and in your loving heart. But I was too scared to voice it, to admit to you or even to myself that I had more than friendly feelings toward you; that my love was more than merely that of a best friend, a confidant.
It was YOU...you who have captured my whole heart, my very soul, my entire being without realizing it. And it tore me up to be near you as I put up a false façade of being content with our deep found friendship because your every move and gentle touch sent shivers down my spine and made me come alive. Just seeing you flash your lopsided smile and looking into your intense oceans of blue that are engraved in my memory turn a dismal day into a splendidly brilliant one filled with vibrant colors.
I can't count the endless number of times I replayed everything we did together as well as recall word for word what you said to me or did not say. And as hard as I try to erase or wish my feelings away to the end of the universe so I can protect myself from the possibility of being hurt and feeling pain, I can't. It's as if my heart refuses to return to me without you, my other half; refuses to deny itself someone who can send it soaring to a place unbeknownst to even immortals; a place that makes colorful rainbows and starry skies seem undesirably bleak.
For a brief moment in time, my naiveness led me to believe that I was over you; that I was able to repress my love for you and give it to another, but I was lying to myself. No one will able to replace you in my life and in the depths of my soul. I am certain of this because I constantly find myself comparing every man to you, whether the man was just a friend or a boyfriend without meaning to do so. Although I know that it is unfair to compare people, how can I not? We shared so much history, tears, laughter, but most importantly, each other.
And this makes it extremely difficult to see you with the one you desire. I held back the tears that were constantly threatening to fall as I listened to you talk about her, to say her name with as much love and admiration as I hold for you. But as much as it pained me to know that you are with her, I am grateful that you found her because I would rather live a painful life so you can have happiness, even if it's just for a brief moment. Seeing your gorgeous eyes that can see others for who they really are light up is worth more to me than life itself.
You know me better than I know myself and this terrifies me, because one day, you may discover how I truly feel about you. Although part of me hopes you do, the other part may not be ready for the change or possible consequences, but I am willing to face any of the affects if there was a chance that you were in love with me. And all I can do is wait...wait for the endless possibilities and the twists and turns life may bring.
The end.