Hi there! This is my first fanfic ever! SO! I decided I really wanted to do one on Mamotte Lollipop! I suppose I have twisted the story a bit – OK a LOT! I just hope it passes whatever standards it needs to, I hope it isn't too bad!

Oh, and I put stream because I thought river was too big, I am sure streams can get quite deep, can they not? Also, that scene...I couldn't think of anything else for them to fall into! If it is too lame please tell me!

Disclaimer: I do not own Mamotte Lollipop or Madotte Mamotte Lollipop or any of the characters.

Memories flash through my mind. Not just any memories.

Our memories.

All those times when he said my name, he laughed with me, he fought with me...all those happy times. The times when I would look up at his handsome, happy face, smiling down at me in his flamboyant manner. He told me one day. He said those words. Those words that I had yearned to hear, every minute, every second I had spent with him.

The words, "I love you."

FLASHBACK

"Nina...there is something I need to tell you before I leave. Something that has been on my mind a while now...how can I find the words to describe this feeling that has grown over me, it makes my heart flutter just to look at that person. She's so beautiful, I have tried so many times to tell her...that I love her, Nina I love her!" He gazes up at me, a blush creeping across his face.

I gasp.

"You love her! Who is her?"

I choke out my words, tears suddenly start streaming down my face, tears that had threatened to shed many times before, but he would always stop them – for he, was my cure. He reached out to me, to embrace me, console me. Oh, how I long to go and pour out my troubles to him. His worried face made me only cry harder. Oh I want to feel him near me. I want him. To tell him I love him.

No.

No, I can't. He has found someone else. Not me.

I can't take it any more. I run down the grass bank, tripping over scattered twigs, leaves crunching under my feet; the sound of my heart breaking all over again.

'Why! Why me! Why do I have to have these feelings? Why can't I be happy for him? Oh please, someone tell me why...' These thoughts race through my mind; I don't know where I am running. I'm just running, running, away from him...away from my love.

I can feel the hot wet tears racing down my cheeks, flying off behind me - the tears that tell the story of my life, each one part of my hidden emotions, my thoughts, my hopes and dreams.

I come to the steep banks either side of the stream. I can't jump it! I am running to fast, it happens in a blur; my foot slips, one minute I am running the next I am falling downwards towards the stream.

"NINA!!" A yell from behind me says my name.

Someone grabs my hand. Together we are falling, falling.

SPLASH!!

I am wet, my clothes are soaked! I shiver, my body sending chills through me. I crawl to the edge of the stream were the water flows shallow. Then my wave of emotions come flooding back, filling my head with my previous thoughts. I look up.

He is there of course. We fell together. His hair is dripping wet, his shirt soaked through.

"Nina! Nina are you okay? I am so sorry! I shouldn't have let you go! Oh Nina, you must be freezing!"

He pulls me close, this time I cannot resist. I sob into the crook of his neck. Why am I crying? Ugh I must seem so immature!

"I didn't think you would have reacted the way you did...what I was going to say was, Nina, you're the girl that I love...I love you."

He pauses. The silence between us not awkward, but lingers in the air, waiting for one of us to break it. I almost choke. I look up. Is he lying? He just said he loved me! No! This can't be true? Can it? Should I trust him?

Yes.

"I love you too."

The words seem small and quiet against the soft breeze that tugs and my hair, begging it to come free of the ribbons I was wearing. Our eyes meet..

"Ever since I met you...I felt something for you. I tried to push it away, but it still grew and grew inside me..."

He trails off an looks at the running water beneath us. I can only say one thing right now;

"Me too."

He crawls over beside me, and places his hands on my waist. I gasp inwardly and automatically put my hands on his shoulders. He leans down, one moment we are gazing into each others eyes, he next we are kissing...

END FLASHBACK

My first kiss.

I can't believe it. He has been gone for a year now, a whole year. Every time I rang him he had to go somewhere. So I stopped ringing, and although he sent e-mails I never sent them back. If he was so busy I convinced myself he didn't need me to be bothering him every day. Every week. Every month. No. I didn't need to bother him at all.

Since the incident two months since he left that was they day I never called, never e-mailed, never contacted him.He had mede it clear that he didn't need me. I had made myself determined to make myself flawless. I would make myself pretty, popular, smart and most of all I had to be perfect.

Then I would show him how much I had changed - how I had changed for the better. No longer would I be the flat chested girl who couldn't cook, or who always threw major tantrums when he was around. I remember now, looking in the mirror that day. I would make myself perfect.

So here I am. I have made myself this way, but if people could see beneath this show that I put on every day of my life, if they could see my feelings, I doubt they would like to be like me after all.

So all I do now is wait. Wait, wait and wait.

Wait for the return of my beloved Zero.

Was it lame? Was it even worse than that? Was it not worth reading? Please review and tell me what you think! I can take criticism! I am sorry if it is very short, I am not sure what size chapters should be! XD