Finding My Way Back to You
I've experienced a lot of pain and loss in my life, I can tell you right now that it doesn't get easier as time passes by. The truth is that it only gets worse, it feels worse than torture but at least with torture the pain eventually goes away. THis feeling was different, this was a pain on another level because there is always something to remind me of the pain and loss. People constantly coming up to you, trying to console you, telling you what great people they were, telling you that they couldn't imagine what you were going through or they you had people telling you that you had to take over the company and the pressure that came with it. so there I was trying to fill their shoes while constantly being reminded of them every day, so Obadiah helped me get through it. hmmm...obadiah, man I still can't believe that betrayal and the pain that I felt with it but I'm supposed to be strong and pretend like it doesn't affect me anymore. you wanna know something, it still does and you wanna know why... because people keep betraying me without any remorse. you see, there are always reminders and opening old wounds and creating new ones. It feels like I'm back where I started because here I am again sitting in an empty house, full of things that he would in just to see his parents faces again. To hear my dad yell at me for being a disappointment, he didn't care because he just wanted them back. To have someone soothe his pain, someone to let you know everything was going to be ok. someone who was strong enough for the both of you. A soulmate who was perfect for me in every way and wanted me for me, the real me! A person who reached deep down and brought out the real side of me. someone who fought for me and alongside me. I the end all I was left with was an empty house, it matched the emptiness that I felt inside. The worse part of my situation wasn't that I was dying, it was the fact I was dying alone. Loneliness is the worse feeling and I should know because I faced a lot of pain throughout my lifetime. so many thoughts passed through his head but the one that he couldn't shake was his friends and pepper. Where would be when she got the news, how would she react and how long would it take her to stop missing him? who would console her? He stood there, covered in his own blood, in so much pain and all he kept thinking was how he would miss all of his friends and how he wished it would be over soon.
All he was trying to do was find his way back to her but now it was too late
what can I say, I've never been great with timing. My faults were always dragging me down and causing a rift between me and the people I love. I never thought it would come to this, I never thought that my faults would be the death of me, that I would never see Pepper again and that she would never know how I felt. It's too late for me, I've been a lost cause ever since I left that cave.
To be honest I think that people would be better without me.
This whole thing started with Rhodes, he was just-
you'll see