Basically a suicide attempt in Gaara's POV, wrote this when I was feeling way depressed and actually visualised myself doing something like this, so yeah I'm pretty messed up. But instead of killing myself I used it constructively to write this. So, enjoy.
Oh, and mild NaruGaa – couldn't help it I love this pairing!
Chapter one –
I close my eyes, away from the pain. I can feel it, and I wonder how people can stand being this vulnerable.
The kunai knife in my hand slits another cut down my arm, but the rapid beating of my heart pounds loudly in my ears, tormenting me with it's futile attempts to keep me alive.
I know the more it beats the more blood rushes out and the quicker I die. The very thing keeping me alive is helping to kill me. Ironic really.
Silly heart. I can hear the throb of the beat, and I scream in my head, 'stop your damn beating! Quit trying to keep me alive it won't work!'
I curse it for continuing to beat, why won't it stop? I open my eyes and slash another gash across my wrist, my vision blurring and wobbling, making me ill with dizziness.
But still my heart continues to pump its precious life force into me, and I draw my hand back to plunge the kunai straight at the source of this battle.
The sand tries feebly to stop my attack, but I mentally laugh and how weak it is, allowing the kunai to slice straight through it, and into my heart.
I fall, with a barely audible thud. My eyes close and I can feel my life flowing out and spilling onto the floor, and I feel like smiling.
Soon, it will be over, and I can finally be at peace. I hear my name being called, or was it my imagination? It must be just me, but I could've sworn…
There it is again, who is that? I strain to hear who is calling, but I'm drifting out of consciousness quickly. I struggle to stay awake; I want to hear who it is.
But I can't, and suddenly I curse my sand for letting my attack to get through. My name is called once again, and I feel pressure on my cut up arm.
But it's too late, I'm gone. My conscious shuts down and I hear no longer.
Next chapter: will Gaara find out who it was trying to help him? Will he find a reason to live? Find out in the next chapter!