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Summary: Haley moved away back in her childhood
years due to certain circumstances but is now back living with her
mother, her old childhood friend, and his mother. When her hidden
life of many years comes back to haunt her the people she feels close
to in tree hill will be the only ones who can help her! Can Lucas
save Haley from her sad and pained heart? Can their friendship
rebuild now that they are both mature teens? will they find love in
the end of this all? Well read and find out!
As I stand
afront this small familiar house a smile comes to my face. Though it
may not shine as bright as previous times its present. Bringing my
rather clammy hand up over my head i let my fingers run through the
lose waves that rest against my scalp. Its a feeling I'm not at all
used to. A sense of both peace and calm rushing through my vains as I
follow my mother to the front steps. It has been nine years but
everything still looks and feels exactly the way we had left it. As
my mother knocks softly against the wooden door I can't help but bite
the corner of my lip in anticipation. Six years is far to long to go
without seeing those that matter most. Six years to any teenage girl
can seem like a lifetime altogether. I only hope that they themselves
have stayed the same. Like the outter demeanor of this very home, the
people who nestle inside are ones I once recognized. Seeing him
standing there when my gaze finally looks forward causes me to gasp
in suprise. I looked to him wondering what his thoughts were seeing
me here. After all he must have been expecting us. Sure he knew I
would be coming. But the look on his face doesn't heal me like I had
imagined. For some unknown reason I had made myself believe the
moment our eyes met everything in my heart and mind, all the sadness
and pain I had been feeling would dissolve. I predicted he would take
me in his arms and for just a moment I would be brought back to the
safe place; when everything was okay. But he makes no move for me. He
doesnt even flash me his once adorably sweet smile. Instead he
reaches out and grasps all of my mothers belongins before whispering
a soft hello and then beckoning for us to come inside. Shaking my
head a bit dissapointed I feel myself grow hot. Why was he dismissing
me in this way? I thought after everything I had been through he
would make it a main priority of showing his love and concern my way.
Looking to my mother who was now in the arms of her former and
dearest friend I can't help the tears that are building deep within
me. Tears are no stanger to me. For it seems like with each day
passing it becomes all the more normal to break out in hysterics. I
thought coming here would change that. But watching my mothers
exchange with her friend and knowing that is the kind of moment I
should too be sharing with HIM i realize maybe i was foolish in
dreaming my tears would soon subside. Reaching for the small rubber
bands that rested against my wrist I slowly start to tug them gently
before letting them fall back, snapping against my skin. Seeing me
take part in this my mother releases herself from the warm embrace
and turns to me with concern. "Haley dear are you
alright?" She turns away from each of them and walks back
towards me. I see the look in her eyes and it pains me. She's hurting
just as much as I am. Hell it is likely that she may be hurting even
more. And yet on top of all her pain I bring upon even more worry
towards her. I can't help the way I am. I don't mean to bring greater
sadness upon her. But as much as I don't want to and as much as I
don't mean to deep down inside I know I do. Snapping another band
against me I jump a bit at the contact it makes with my skin. The
stinging burn it causes me brings even more tears into my eyes. I see
them watching on. They both remain silent as they watch the
interaction between my mother and I. It makes me feel a bit
uncomfortable but I focus in on my mothers voice. "Honey
what's wrong?" She brings a hand up to my face and immedietly I
flinch. My eyes closing downward as my body reacts to its norm. I
hate myself for reacting this way but in all honestly there is
nothing more I can do. Whispering words of sorry I step back from
her. Shrugging her arms off my shoulders I open my eyes once more to
look back at them. He looks at me confused. His eyebrows furrowed and
his eyes gleaming with many questions. I drop my bags onto the hard
wood flooring and step back even further. Reaching for the door I
moments ago entered from I turn the knob quickly before stating. "I
need some air." The wind hits my face as once again I am
back out doors. I wrap my arms around myself as I waste not even a
moment before rushing out of the yard and into the streets. Its not a
strange land to me for I grew up here many years ago. Not much has
changed and it is easy to find my way. It is only evening so its not
exactly darkened out but the sun seems soon to set. My legs pick up
pace as the wind whisps my face and flows through my hair. I feel bad
for leaving like that but to much was taking place. They were viewing
far more than they needed and everything was getting to unbearable. I
just needed a moment to get away. To regain myself and calm down
before returning. My strides becoming larger as I note my destination
is right ahead. Just as I'm about to make way onto the black pavement
a body brings me to a halt. Apparently I wasn't paying much attention
for now two arms were holding tightly around my waist keeping me from
falling. Strong arms I might add. Feeling nervousness in wondering
just who had a hold of me I started to grow with panick and began
struggling to remove myself. Kicking wasn't exactly an option
considering the position i was in but I released many screams before
hearing his voice alarm. "Hot Damn girl. What the hell
dawg?." Slowly removing his hold on me his words continued. "Let
me get this straight. You plow into me with your scrawny california
white $$ and then throw a damn tantrum for placing my hands on you.
Shoot it aint even like that." Shaking his head and placing his
hands on each side of his hips I finally come to recognition. The
sound of his voice was all to familiar. And right now the most
pleasing sound I have ever heard. Standing myself straight I look him
over for the first time in nine years. My eyes taking in all that he
now represented. "Now before you go undressing me with yo
eyes and all that. Come give me some lovin I be deservin."
Opening his arms was the best welcome a girl could recieve. Quickly
making way into his embrace I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly
and felt him too seal me in his arms. Breathing in his scent I pulled
away for a moment before placing a soft kiss to his lips. "God
I missed you so much Skillz. It is so good to see you." This
time I didn't even try in preventing the tears from falling. They
came upon me quicker than ever before. My hand softly caressed his
cheek before kissing him once again. "Shoot girl you
should go away more often if you be walking back here giving me
hellos this good." Taking my hand in his he gestured for me to
follow him. We together made way over to the old picnick table and
rested ourselves atop it. His hand moving ever so slowly in wiping
away each tear from my cheek. "If this is my greeting I
can only imagine all that you did to Luke. Damn Lucky $$ baller."
It was the first time I released laughter. Those words spoken all to
frequently way back when. Pushing Skillz playfully he nudged his
shoulder into mine before his face grew serious. Looking in my eyes
he scratched at his bald head before whispering. "Something
has deffinetly changed with you James. Your missing your fire. There
is no excitment in those eyes of yours. Anything you feel like
voicing baby girl?" Nodding in agreement I took the hand
of my childhood friend and held it softly between both of my own.
Bringing it up ever so cautiously i placed a loving peck onto his
knuckle before looking back over at him. "Too many
things. But we have other times to get into that kind of stuff. Right
now I just want to enjoy being in your arms again. You have no idea
how many nights i dreamed of my two best friends. My two best friends
taking me into their arms and just holding me for a lifetime."
Moving myself even closer to him I let his arm find its way around
me. My head coming to lay against his shoulder and finally finding
some peace I needed. The peace and security I had expected and knew
to find within him and Lucas. At least one of them would follow
through. One of them would make feel safety. "No worries
baby girl. I'd never think of letting you go."
