By Kari Raines @ JadedAmida@aol.com
This is a poem I wrote while watching the last few episodes of Deep Space Nine, specifically after watching the ones where Ezri Dax sleeps with Worf and then realizes she has feelings for Julian. This poem is about the confusion and conflicting emotions she must have experienced.
Torn is my heart
Which yearns with the force of two.
Confusion takes over;
I am nothing if not torn.
To yearn for one soul,
But to dream of another.
Is it possible for one's heart to be so divided?
So different they are;
Yet they occupy the same amount of space in this trap
Which is my heart.
Memories of past lives
Make old feelings feel new.
Yearnings and emotions of others
That never really belonged to me,
Yet do at the same time.
Old feelings mixed with my own.
How am I to know which are mine?
I feel I belong in his arms,
Yet another's face surfaces in my dreams.
Does he love me for me?
Or does he love that he sees her in me?
Two dark pairs of eyes burn into my heart.
Two faces, so different;
But both fill me with emotions I cannot explain.
What is my destiny?
Shall I be forever torn?