A/n: So I think I can speak for everybody when I say I didn't see that I didn't see that ending coming. But after watching the episode I realized how perfectly this song fit with it and this wouldn't leave me alone. I'm hoping to have a few more chapters to add to this soon.

Looking back on the memory of the dance we shared beneath the stairs above. For a moment, all the world was right. How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye?...Holding you, I held everything. For a moment wasn't I the king? But if I'd only known how the king would fall, well who's to say you know I might have changed it all. And now, I'm glad I didn't know the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives are better left to chance. I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance.—Garth Brooks, The Dance

He was always amazed at the way they fit together. How it didn't matter whether he was pulling her to his side or into his arms, she always seemed to fall perfectly into the nooks and crannies of his body. It was like she was the final puzzle piece. Maybe she was. He knew he wasn't the same when she wasn't around. He was incomplete somehow. Maybe she was the thing that put him together, the thing that made it all make sense. He had never spoken truer words than those under the influence of truth serum and unbridled hope.

'Couldn't live without you I guess'

He had tried. Lord knows he had tried to move on, to find a way to be okay without her in his life but no matter what he always ended up just feeling empty and alone. After Somalia he started to admit at least to himself that it wasn't enough to just be her friend. He wanted more. He wanted her in his every aspect of his life. He loved her and it terrified him because he hadn't truly loved anyone since his mother. But a relationship back then would have only ended in disaster. She was damaged, he wasn't ready and so they continued on in blissful ignorance, swearing they were just friends.

'You are not alone'

As much as he's still kind of pissed at being left out of the loop, he's also extremely grateful that Gibbs ordered him to go with her to Europe. It's the chance he needs to get her away from everyone else and get her attention again. He can still fix things. They aren't completely broken yet. He can make see that he's still there, still waiting for her when she's ready. And if Bodnar is out of the way then maybe she finally will be.

'I'm tired of pretending'

He's an opportunist. It's a trait he inherited from his father. As they sit at the bar, sipping martinis scanning the crowd discretely for their target he finds his moment. Sure, pulling her out on the dance floor is a tactical move to allow them to continue their surveillance but it's also a selfish one on his part. Her hair is down, her dress is short and he wants so badly to hold her in his arms and remind her how good they are together before it all goes down.

She looks at him and for a moment it's just her and him. Everything he's ever wanted is literally right there in the palm of his hands and he never wants to let go. But then the drop happens and she slips away from him, back to reality and he can't help but wonder if they missed their chance again.