Musical Soulmate
I am a girl who dreamed to be a famous singer someday. Like Hayley Williams or Avril Lavigne or maybe Amy Winehouse or Michael Jackson. I want it so bad that I did anything to always sing.
Papi disapproves my choice to be a singer because he thinks its non-sense and cannot get me anything in life but I think he is wrong. He wanted me to be a lawyer like mami or a doctor like him but its not who I am.
Mami supported me through my career but she died in a tragic car accident. I wish God didn't get her yet but I think it is the best for her there than here. My parents know I'm gay.
Papi disowned me, saying he doesn't have a daughter who is a lesbian and the most hurting part is that I am a sin, that I don't deserve to live, that I should die. But mami fought for me.
We ran away, far away from my papi, leaving him there all alone in that house. She protected me from harm, from anything that will hurt me and I wish I was there to save her from the accident.
I didn't even say a proper goodbye. She was my best friend too and I told her everything. All my darkest secrets that only the two of us knows. The last words she said to me were 'See you later mija. Be safe. Te amo.' And I didn't expect her to be dead after that.
I wish that there would be a time machine out there, somewhere, so I can turn back the time and save her from dying. I haven't seen my papi since then; he didn't even bother to call or to even look for us if were alive or maybe worst, dead. What a witch?
Since then, I work harder for myself, to support my needs. I was lucky to sing to some bars or gigs offered to me here. I also serve as a waitress if needed. I graduated high school already and went to college for 3 years but stopped since Mami died.
Sometime, along those years or months, someone discovered my talent and tada… I'm a singer now. Mami always says that no matter what happens to me or to my career, do not be a douche and be down-to-earth.
Treat each one you meet along the way throughout your career with respect and kindness and everything will be just fine. Be strong and do not be affected of who and what is destroying you or putting you down because you are Santana Maria Lopez.
A girl who don't easily back down when the other things are falling apart, a girl who always get what she wants no matter what. As the days goes by, I can't help but write and write non-sense songs and I don't know what is happening to me. I lacked an inspiration already since my mami passed away. I finished writing my album songs and the only thing needed is the recording.
Dating never really crossed my mind, now that I'm thinking about it, maybe I can try one. But I have no time for that, with all this recording and writing songs and other appointments here and there.
Can I find my musical soulmate soon…?