Renesmee's (Complicated yet Dangerous) Love Life

The Diary of Nessie

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Monday

Sometimes fathers can be so frustrating, they give the excuse "we're only looking out for you" but puh-lease. I'm not stupid. I can take care of myself. Anyway as if Jake'd do anything to hurt me. That's outrageous! Dad I guess, worries too much. He doesn't like the fact that Jake imprinted on me. It's not like it's his fault. I do love Dad so much but when he insults Jake everytime he comes up to meet me, I must admit I do feel like breaking his neck...gently of course. Mother agrees with me on the fact that he's too overprotective. But Dad'll never admit it. God no.

Anyway Dad and Mother aside. Something has been sort of bothering me for the past few weeks. I guess I could say my feelings have changed. I mean I used to see Jake as an older brother but since I've aged and developed into an older teenager, I think I've fallen for him. Since we've been hanging out lately by his house, I just can't help but notice how beautiful he looks, how much we have in common and when he lightly touches my hand, how my heart races. There's just something that pulls me towards him. But I must be so stupid to believe that Jake would want to be in a relationship with a half-human and half-vampire. He's a werewolf, for godsake. I knew he imprinted on me but it wasn't a soulmate type of imprint it was a sort of a sisterly brotherly thing wasn't it? Anyway isn't it against everything they believe in?

I guess I'll just have to be miserable and deal with the type of relationship we have now.

Do you know what? High school can really suck. I'm so sick of the typical human boys that go there. I swear all of them are brain dead (today one moron wolf-whistled at me in class which was so embarassing! I so wanted to rip his head off) but I mean... not all human boys are bad, it's just the ones that go to my school. I, did however, meet someone new; I don't know why I've never noticed him before, but when I did there was something different about him. I kept staring at him at lunch and he kind of realised. Wait to be subtle Nessie!

I totally forgot about him though when Jake came to pick me up from school. God, he looked handsome sat on his motorcycle. He threw a helmet at me and suddenly stared at something behind me.

"What is it?" I asked confused, turning around. There near the entrance was the boy that I was fascinated by. He was looking back at me, meeting my eyes. I turned back to Jake, not meeting his gaze because I just knew what Jake was thinking.

"Who's the guy?"

"I don't know." I muttered feebly as I sat behind him, putting on my helmet.

"C'mon, he seems to know you...pretty well from the way he was staring at you."

"Shut up Jake, it's nothing like that." How the hell could he think I have feelings for anyone else. I...I- (for godsake, I'll admit it)- I love Jacob Black. There's no way I would want to be with anyone else. I knew if Dad found out he'd go bonkers and so would all the rest. But I don't care.I love Jake so much that it hurts. There's so much more to our relationship that Jake'll never realise.

Guess what diary? I'm officially doomed.

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