I fucked up that night Iwa-chan.
I know I shouldn't have drank that much, and I know that if you would have been there you would of made me stop. But you weren't, so I did. I should have known better than to send that text, and if you would have been there you would of made me stop. But you weren't, so I did. I shouldn't have sent the first thing that came into my head, and I know that if you would have been there you would of made me stop. But you weren't, so I did.
That's why I told you I loved you. Sorry about that. It's been like what, 3 weeks now and you still haven't even looked my way. After you asked the teacher to move you "so you could focus better on your studies before graduation" and you stopped sitting with me at lunch I knew I fucked up. All these years of friendships gone because I opened my mouth.
Now I know if you were still talking to me you would say "shittykawa, it's not that big of a deal." And if I was lucky you would say "this isn't going to change our friendship" and if I even luckier you would say "after all, I feel the same" but then again, I'm that not lucky. So now I'm sitting in my room, alone, writing a letter to you (after way too many drinks) that you will never see. I'm sure that in a little bit i'll get over it and move on, but right now it just hurts. So yeah, that's just great.
Is it in bad taste to say I still love you even when you clearly don't even need me? After all it seems like you have more friends than ever, and more girls too. So maybe I did you a favor, telling you I loved you since now you're not with me it seems like everyone can't get enough of Iwa-chan. Anyways, I should probably stop this letter here, after all even if I did give it to you, you would probably just throw it out. I wanted to need this with I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wreck everything we had, but it's too late to stop myself, but if I could go into the past I would stop myself. After all, I love you too much to want to have to say goodbye forever.
-Oikawa