Chapter One: Dancing For Rain
We're losing daylight but I can't work any faster
Under the veil of the dusk we go on
Don't close your eyes
What if it all disappears in the shadows
That reach from the stars?
"Hey Oliver, it's me again. It's Monday and I just got back from school. Danica's here with me too. She wanted to see you. I'm not sure what to do here, so I guess I'll just tell you about my day at school.
In Reading, Ms. Kwan is making us read Hamlet. It's actually not that bad and I think you'd like it. I'm reading the part of Ophelia, but we all know what happens to her in the end. I do anyway. I won't spoil it for you. JT's reading for Hamlet, but he's not really that good at it. Kwan said she might make us act it out for a grade, but I hope she doesn't.
I had another math test after that. I actually studied for it this time and I think I did pretty well. Mr. Armstrong still bothers me a little about Danica and keeps saying if I need help to just ask. It's getting annoying.
In Media Immersions, we watched the news all day. They aired all the footage they shot from Saturday night. Seeing Tric burned down actually made me happy. It's helping in a way. Dad is still really upset with me though. I think he did it as part of my punishment. Mom just cried and cried when she found out, but I think I already told you that.
I ate lunch alone today. Brooklyn wasn't in school, Manny hates me, and JT and Toby have sided with Manny on this one. I'm surprised I actually went to school at all, but my parents are making me. They said even though what happened to you was terrible, it could have all been prevented. I guess they're right. This is all my fault." I paused, trying to wipe the tears from my face. It didn't work though. The tears kept spilling down my cheeks, and right onto Danica's head. She didn't notice. She was just sitting in my lap and watching.
"Sorry. I try not to break down like this but it's just so hard. I've lost you Oliver. And I don't know what to do. Mom and Dad want me to go to a therapist, but I don't think it will help. The only thing that can help me is to have you back. But I'll just finish telling you everything.
I didn't pay attention at all in Music or Science. Even though Science is my favorite subject, I couldn't think of going through it without you. All I did was stare at your empty desk and cry. Mrs. Hatzilakos let me leave for a few minutes to regain my composure but it didn't really work.
Then in Theater, I broke down again. Since you can't do the play, some grade eleven has taken your place. I dropped out of it too. It's just another thing I can't bare to do without you with me. Manny took my place, and in a way, I'm happy about it. I want her to be happy and I can tell she wanted to be the lead. I don't care about it anymore.
There's not anything else to tell you about school because I skipped my study period, picked Dani up from daycare early, and came here. I'm so sick of everyone saying that they're sorry or for me to come to them for help. First of all, it's not anyone's fault but mine, so no one else can be sorry. And how is anyone going to help me? You're the only one that can help me. I need you Oliver. Danica needs you too. And Maddox, and Brooklyn. There are so many people that need you. Just come back to us.
I've been praying for rain. I know that you love it like I do. I thought that maybe it would help me in some way. Remember the time we left Luna Park and it was pouring? We had both walked to work, and had to walk home. You were afraid I was going to get sick, just because I was pregnant, and I was telling you I'd be fine. We ran through the rain and got soaked. We even stopped halfway to my aunt's house just to make out. I bet you weren't worried about me getting sick then. And when we finally got there, my aunt wouldn't even let us in because we were so wet. She made us take our shoes and socks off outside, then run down to the basement to get changed. It was the first time I'd seen you undressed, with your underwear on of course. I kept staring at you and you were making fun of me.
It hasn't rained yet. When it does, I'm going to run in it. Maybe it'll help. It has to help. I'll dance in the rain until you come back. I love you Oliver."
If I held my ground would you ask me to change?
This drought bleeds on and we're dancing for rain
We drink the air but it's still not the same
These worlds collide but the distance remains
A/N: The song is "Dancing For Rain" by Rise Against. Okay, I made up that the first day of school (which was chapter two of the first story) was on September 3rd. I went through the entire story and worked out that it ended on September 21st. Since that was a Saturday, and this is Monday, the date is September 23rd. With that said…what do you think of the first chapter? I know it's short…sorry about that. Does anyone understand what's going on? The title and summary of the story are from the song Life On Standby by Hawthorne Heights and they own it.
Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or any of its characters. I do own Oliver, Danica Jade, Brooklyn, and Maddox.