Dear Diary,
I don't know what to think anymore, I mean Yusei is just my friend so...

Dear Diary,
Yusei and I are definitely friends. I mean when I think of him he really is just very friendly and sweet and amazing and...

Dear Diary,
I see Yusei as my older brother, really. Last time I saw him was when we watched the sunset together at the balcony and when I looked at him, he appeared far more sexier then...

'' AHHHH! '' I shouted agitated as I ripped another page from my diary sheet and threw it near the trash can. Why can't I just accept the fact that I have feelings for Yusei? I thought.
'' Akiza, lunch is ready my darling. '' I heard my mother call from downstairs.
'' I'm coming mother. '' I said as I closed my diary and placed it back inside my desk drawer.
Of course I can't accept it. Our friendship would be completely ruined and I don't want to lose Yusei as a friend. '' Ever '' I whispered to finish my own thoughts.
I stood up and walked my way downstairs to join lunch with both my parents.

I remained quiet during lunch, I hardly ate anything and was just completely absent-minded.
Luckily my parents weren't very aware of my behavior this time as they were chit-chatted with each other, I slowly drank my glass of orange juice empty.
I reached back to my room and dropped myself on my bed as I was staring aimlessly at the star shaped ceiling light that was shimmering slowly above me.
Yusei.. what makes you so darn special? I mean sure you did process the qualities I liked in a guy but I still never thought or felt for you the same way as I do now.
Have you slowly stolen my heart from me? My emotions? Why? You jerk.
I sighed and turned on my side as I heard the rain drops hitting on the window, rapidly.

I heard a knock on my door and slowly got up and walked while rubbing my right eye.
I opened the door and out of nowhere Yusei stood there, staring at me.
'' Y-Yusei?! why are you- '' I spoke before a finger was placed on my lips to be quiet.
'' Akiza, I gathered all my courage to come over to you, I have a confession to make. ''
I slowly felt my heartbeat was rising up as I stared at Yusei's blushing face.

Those eyes, that cute face of his, his perfume that was spreading off him, that gorgeous hair...
I felt my face heated up with each second as his presence had an narcotic effect on me.
I gently grabbed his finger which he still held on my lips and pulled it away.
'' What...confession? '' I couldn't believe I even had the courage to ask him such a question,
my emotions were burning through me like fire as I awaited his response in anticipation.

'' Akiza I... '' Yusei's nervous voice spoke out to me as his cheeks stained more red.
My eyes widened as my nerves were driving me crazy yet, Yusei remained silent after that.
'' You what..Yusei? '' I asked as the moment of bliss I was feeling earlier seemed to be fading away slowly, it felt that perhaps he wanted to tell me something else then what I've imagined.
'' Beep, Beep, Beep. '' He spoke repeatedly, this time staring at me expressionless as the redness around his face had cleared up.
''...What? Yusei, stop playing jokes on me right now and tell me what you were going to say. The reason you came to me for. Tell me. Yusei. Yusei?! '' I spoke.

I stared at the wall that was in front of me as I continued hearing the beeping sound.
'' ...a dream huh? '' I whispered softly as I laughed bittersweet. I should've known.
I sighed as I turned around and grabbed my cell phone to which the sound came from.
I looked at the screen to see who it was when I instantly sat up on the bed and let out a little cry.
Yusei's name appeared on the screen as I gazed at my cell phone, feeling the vibrations going through my hand. I was doubting whether I was still dreaming or actually fully awake now.

Why would he call me out of the blue like this? Maybe.. no way...my dream..will he confess?
No!.. it was just a dream...right? Or perhaps maybe this all wasn't just coincidence? Perhaps?
I kept having multiple thoughts running through my mind as I knew I had to pick up the phone soon or else Yusei would hang up.
I took a deep breath and accepted the call as I held the phone on my ear with a trembling hand. '' Yo..Yusei? '' I spoke, trying to sound as casual as I normally was when speaking to him.
The line remained silent for a few moments, as I was starting to get suspicious with each second. '' Hello?..Yusei? Are you there? '' I asked, as I looked at my screen but the connection seems to be working fine.
'' Aki.. I'm sorry. '' I finally heard Yusei speak to me as his voice sounded troubled. '' ..Sorry on what?..Are you alright Yusei? '' I asked worried as I furrowed my eyebrows.
'' Aki.. I don't want to see you anymore. I'm sorry. '' Yusei spoke.

My mouth instantly dropped as I remained silent for a few moments, feeling numb
Before I could say anything back, I heard the connection was broken off, a multitude of beeps kept on echoing through my ears as I dropped my hand holding the phone down.
Why did he say something like that..so suddenly? I mean couldn't he at least give me an explanation on why he didn't want to see me anymore? After all we have been through, this was going to be his way of ending our friendship? I thought as I slammed the phone on the ground and stood up, pacing back and forth through my room as my frustrations kept boiling up.

'' He doesn't want to see me anymore? Then fine! Have it his way! I don't need a stupid idiot like him in my life anyways. He can go ahead and leave, I won't stop him! I don't need- ''
I stopped shouting as the last word kept hanging in my throat, choking me up as the tears slowly fell from my eyes, gliding over my cheeks as I dropped myself on my knees and sobbed.
'' I need you Yusei, I need you. I don't want you to go. Why didn't you explain anything to me? What did I do wrong? '' I spoke trembling as the tears kept on shedding.

And there I was, thinking he would confess to me. Like in my dreams. Telling me that
he loves me. Or was this dream portraying my own feelings? my own desire of telling him how I truly felt for him, or rather letting myself accept the fact that I did have feelings for him.
And now everything was ruined, through a stupid phone call.
I grabbed my phone that was on the ground near me and dialed Yusei's number.
I held the phone on my ear again and waited as the connection was pulling me through.
'' Aki, please leave- ''
'' No Yusei! don't hang up the phone and listen to me. '' I ordered, speaking vigorously.
I didn't hear any response back, he probably didn't want to agree with me verbally so instead this was his subtle way of agreeing on my command.
I took a quick breather and cleared my throat before continuing with what I had to say.

'' Yusei, if you don't want to see me anymore then I have to accept that decision of yours.
I don't know what I have done wrong for you to want this but I am just truly disappointed.
You didn't even seem to be willing to explain to me why and just broke the connection like that. I'm sad over this, that's all.
But don't worry, I will get over it, soon... and if this is going to be our last conversation then I just have one thing to say to you..Yusei. I have ... a confession to make you see... After all these weeks of denial and not willing to accept it, after your phone call.. I just... I just want you to know Yusei..That I... I.. I love you. '' I said, feeling I had just released my last breath.
'' You...love me? '' Yusei's astonished voice spoke through. '' Yes, Yusei. I love you. ''