I don't own these characters. Jk, owns them. I make no money from tell my story. I do own the likenesses in my story and the events that I have lived through.

This story is one I know, because it's my own story or close to it, in context. It has been dramatized and changed to fit this fandom. I want people to respect this story and to take it for what it is. I'm not condoning the things I have done. I made my choices and no one can judge me for that. This story will later involve young teens having sex and mild drug abuse. It will also depict mild sexual abuse. At its heart, this story is about the love you can have for one person and the things you can overcome.

This chapter is for Opinionated1234 because she is an angel to me. This story is also for my daughter, who is my only saving grace at times. This entire idea is for Humperdinck, the boy who is everything to me and made me stronger but ripping my heart up and for loving me to a fault.

Prologue

He left me. He hurt me. He ruined me. He lied to me. He fucked me. He killed me. He brought me back. He made me stronger. He changed me. Draco was never good enough and he was too good at the same time. He has power over me. He is everything I need to live. Draco is home. He is love. He is and always will be mine.

I hate him. I love him. I want him. I need him. I live for him. Draco has given me the world and taken it away withoutwarning. He walked away when I needed him most. He is a coward, but I've come to live with that. Draco is all that I am.

Some say we are unhealthy; I say we are fucked up. People say we are too messed up for each other; I say we are too fucked up for other people. Some think it's a show; I think he makes it a show. They say we are murder waiting to happen; I told them Draco is lucky to be alive. Pureblood women think I forced him into being with me, when it's always been the other way around.

People who know us never say anything because they see the fucked up love we have. They see our struggle to make itthrough every day. They see the man he should be and the boy he is, still. They have no idea why I love him, though, I do.

Under all our bullshit he is a loving father and a good boy. Draco loves me to a fault; he hurts me to protect me. He thinks he will save me. But he already has. He made me into the woman I am today. I'm strong because he left me. I'm loved because he came back to me. I'm better because he gave me a gift. That gift saves us every day. I count my coins with care now. I never know what to expect from him and that is fucked up. I know him, but I don't understand him. I never will. He will hurt me and leave me again, but I'll always wait for him. He leaves behind the love of his girls butI will forever belong to Draco Malfoy, and I'll never let go.

Love is fucked up, just like us. Love is mean, like Draco. Love is bitter, like me. Love is sweet, like Emily. Love is unforgiving, like Debbi. Love is spiteful, like Isabelle. Love is trouble, like Roxanne. Love is carefree, like Ginny. Love is sometimes hurtful, like Ron. Love is brave, like Harry. Love is enraged, like Brent. Love is life.

Love hard and love with all you got, because you never know when it will walk away.

I love him and that's forever, sometimes to my misfortune.

When he left me he took everything.

It was the end of everything I knew.

I'm running to stand still.