A/N: This is my first angst/songfic so I'm very sorry if it really, really sucks. It wouldn't stop bugging me so I tried it.
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Rukawa
I clutched the note left for me very tightly. This is the note that will break my final connection to my beloved. It pierces and scars my heart, forever reminding me of my selfishness.
Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust,
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love…
If it should be that way
The redhead loved me unconditionally however it was too overwhelming. It must have been painful to love but in return, you suffocate. After years of my agonizing grasp, he then released himself from being bound from my love.
Swing
the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say good-bye
Tried to learn, Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer?
Is this forever ?
Like
a river flowing to the sea,
You will be miles away, and I will know…
Love? Was that love? Did I give love to him that he left me? Maybe not…I was wrong. I didn't love instead I possesed. I claimed him as my own and along with it, I pained him not grateful for anything he gave me…especially his love.
My tears began to roll down my cheeks. Each drop stung beneath my skin. Like poison penetrating through my veins and wash my life away.
A voice rang inside my head, telling me I am not worthy to live. I was not human enough to be called one. I was a mere body with no soul nor heart.
Insensitive.
Now it suits me best, if not perfectly because of what I did. Now, I'm regretting when it is too late.
Crucify
my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be that way
I hopelessly tossed my weary body on the bed, wishing that I would sink and disappear. Like on quicksand, that discreetly kills its prey… but no, it wouldn't let me disappear this instantly. Time wanted me to suffer more. To suffer the consequence of my fault.
Now a question lingers in my mind. Why didn't I realize what I was doing to him?
No…no.
It is too late to regret now…what has happened is now done, and nothing can be changed.
Will I ever be forgiven?
I
know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry
I know I made a mistake…
'Til
the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I
know I can clear clouds away
Oh is it a crime to love
Is it? Is it a crime to love somone so much?
I loved him to an extent that it killed him. Like a bird restrained by chains and bars…
Swing
the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say good-bye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be that way
Is this a punishment for what I have been?
Will this go on forever?
I can no longer take the pain…
Please forgive me…
A/N: Sorry if this came out very, very, very sappy…
Disclaimers: All standard disclaimers apply. I do not own SlamDunk nor the Song: Crucify My Love. It belongs to X Japan. However I wished to have then T.T