Hello! This is my new fic, hope you all like it! Before you start, just a few things, this story is mostly going to be Kurt and Blaine's diary entries aswell as occasional phone calls, texts and whatever. Also stuff when Blaine visits Kurt and Kurt visits Blaine and blah blah blah. You get the point.
One more thing! This fanfiction is based on the song "Sweater Song" by Hedley. Go listen to it!
OK! I'm finally done! Now read little fanfic monkeys! READ!
August 28, 2012
Dear Diary,
It's been five days since Kurt left to New York City. Five days, since our tearful goodbye on the doorstep, And now there is no looking back. He's gone for good and I can't even process the fact that he's not here. I miss his smile, I miss his face and now, I don't even have the option to drive over to his house and open the door to find my loving boyfriend, standing right there, arms open and welcoming as he envelopes me in all his love. It's just depressing, that now I don't even have an option because he's gone. For good. He's never coming back to Lima. He's never coming back to McKinley and there's a possibility he won't come back to me.
I have some of his clothes in the top drawer of my dresser. They still smell like him. Like they have been soaked in sweetness and pure sexiness. Every night, I take Kurt's favourite black pajama top, and I wear it to bed. The scent of the shirt gives me comfort, it feels, or at least smells like he is still right there. With his arms around me and his face buried into the crook of my neck. If I don't have the shirt on me, I have these terrifying nightmares. Kurt leaving me for a guy he met in New York or Kurt coming back for my graduation just to tell me he doesn't even love me anymore. And the scary thing is, with every day he spends in New York, at NYADA, with his amazing friends, in his amazing apartment, in this amazing town, with these amazing guys, the more true to life my nightmares get. I see Kurt smiling in our video chats and hear him laughing during our phone calls and it finally hits me like a ton of bricks. He's happy there. He's happy without me around to hold him, and I'm sitting here, back in this dump we call Lima Ohio, depressed and lonely without him. I gave Kurt some shirts too, my dark blue sweater and my red Dalton tee-shirt. I doubt that Kurt even cares enough to wear my shirts, but it he does miss me, I'm just happy we both have small little pieces of each other to hold on to. To fill us with warmth when we are too far away to give the other one hugs. There is only a few months left before Kurt finally comes back to me for Christmas, I just hope that a few months is not enough time for Kurt to find a new boyfriend, or forget about my sweater.
And BOOM! There you go! My new fanfiction! I wrote this when I was bored at 5:00 in the morning, so if it sucks, don't judge me. Oh, and for all the people who are reading my other fanfiction, I can't do it! It takes to long to write, and with school... I'm going too need to put it on break! I'm sorry!
Review! I will love you forever!