BPOV

There are roughly 6 billion people in this world, yet I can not find one person for me. I mean not just for me as a friend, or anything like that, but actually for me, like what Romeo and Juliet had, or Marius and Cosette. Well technically I had found someone, but does it really count when they don't love you back?

My two best friends, Edward and Alice Cullen. We were like the three musketeers in high school. Edward and Alice were twin siblings, but that didn't stop us from all being equally close. We told each other everything, well except for one small little detail of my life. I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Edward. Alice knew of course, and after months of her nagging me to tell him how I felt, I finally did it during a party at their house towards the end of our senior year.

FLASHBACK

"Edward," I tapped on his shoulder while he was talking to some guy friends on his football team. He turned around.

"Bella!" I could definitely tell he was drunk, and the smell of alcohol from his breath did not help. "What can I do for you?"

"Can we talk out side, alone?" I asked not wanting to talk about this in front of his friends.

"Sure." He said putting his arm around my neck and leading me towards the back door. Once there we headed out onto the small, empty patio. "What'd you want to talk about, Bella?"

"Umm. Okay so this is kind of hard for me to say." I paused and started to pace back and forth while Edward sat down. "Well we've been friends for a while now," I began again, trying not to look at him, "since freshmen year, and well, I have more feelings for you than as just friends." I waited still, watching him until he spoke.

"Bella, I… I don't know what to say," he started, brushing a hand through his silky, bronze hair, "I wasn't expecting this at all. I thought we were friends."

"We are, but I though maybe there was something else, but I can see I was wrong, sorry." I said and began to walk back inside. Just as I started to open the door, he pulled my arm away.

"Bella, its not that I don't love you, I mean I do, very much, but I guess just not in the same way that you love me. I am sorry, really I am. I don't want things to be weird between us, your one of my best friends."

I didn't know what to say. I just nodded. Edward then hugged me tight and then the phrase "drunken words are sober thoughts" ran through my head.

END OF FLASHBACK

That was the last time I really talked to Edward Cullen. There was the occasional "hi, how are you?" every time I would come over to his house to hang with Alice, but since that day, everything changed. It was no longer Edward, Alice and I, just Alice and I. I regretted telling Edward of my feelings everyday for as long as I can remember.

Now I was 23 years old, just out of college and was heading back to sunny L.A. for the first time since my high school graduation. I had my best friend, Alice, in the car with me, a bag of skittles, and Paramore's new CD playing at full volume, so why was I so glum? Alice must have noticed, because just as I turned off the high way heading toward home, she turned down the music.

"Bella, why are you so depressed? I mean, you didn't even sing along to Crush Crush." Wow. She was good.

"Ugh. I've just been so frustrated lately. I mean, I just graduated from Stanford and I still have no clue what I want to do with my life. Plus, now I have to go home to my parents after not seeing them for 2 straight years. And to top it all off, I haven't had sex in 2 months." I exaggerated the last part by throwing my arms up in the air, totally forgetting I was driving.

"Well I am sorry. But I know you'll figure it all out. And about that last part, I know Edward is going to be coming home soon." She elbowed me. That evil little pixie.

"I haven't heard nor talked to Edward in god only knows how long. So I don't think that will have and effect on my sex life, but thank you."

"He's been asking about you lately. And I know you still totally love him no matter what you say."

"Alice, NO!"

"Alright, Alright. Jeez, sorry for trying to make two people happy."

And with that, I turned up the volume on the stereo and before I knew it, I was pulling up into my parent's house. This was not going to be fun.