ok this is my first fanfic please review and tell me if i should continue or not and ur ideas on this story are much appreaciated :) kthanks

what do you do when the one you love doesn't love you back? Who never sees you as more than the best friend the one who's always there no matter what the ones whose shoulders always there to cry on and arms are always open just the good friend nothing more nothing less...

Ok pretty cliché I know, my names Spencer carlin and as you can already guess I'm in love with my best friend. You're probably thinking yeah and so what, it's happened to everyone..? Just another typical girl crushing on her best friend the guy that's been there her whole life but never sees her as more right? Wrong see it's nothing like that well ok the crushing on best friend part 'ding ding' 10 points! That parts right but see here's the hilarious and most shit part about it it's not a guy at all in fact it's a very beautiful brunette named Ashley Davies yep you guessed it a girl...

Ok so I never planned on any of this happening I cant exactly control who I like and how I feel for them, oh how I wish I could then I wouldn't have to deal with keeping this massive secret from the one person I trust the most, without having to get jealous whenever I see a guy or girl have their hands all over her oh or when she talks about how hot they are oh yeah Ashley's "not exactly into labels" but most people would call her bisexual, but What kills the most is never being able to answer the simple question of "what's wrong?" Because the real reason is her! And I hate it. I hate that on stupid little secret and these stupid feelings could destroy everything, I've thought countless times about whether I should tell her or not but there's too much at stake I wouldn't dare risk it, on the other hand it could be the best thing that's ever happened to me that she feels the same or she could do the complete opposite and things could be so awkward between us that she'd never want to see me again let alone talk to me she could just disappear from my life and as much as I want her to know how I feel I couldn't handle that.

So you're probably wondering when my life became so messed up and confusing well a couple of month's back Aiden who was Ashley's well our best friend had moved to Ohio to go live with his dad for a while we were sad he was leaving but we knew he would be back , Aiden was the tall dark and handsome type of guy with the perfect body he was really sweet and boyfriend material but I could never see him like that has like a brother to me and we both know that, Ashley of course was the dark and mysterious one that people knew nothing about it took me over a year just to get her to spill a few secrets she was also the most rebellious one out of me and Aiden she was one of those "everything once " type of a person she's always trying to get Aiden well it's just me now to skip class, she drinks and smokes whenever she gets the chance and Aiden and I were always the ones picking her up from the floor or getting her out of fights ,trees, bushes even her next door neighbour's dog kennel take your pick, but since Aiden left it was just me and her which as you can guess brought us closer and closer each day and this is where the feelings started and I had officially become screwed.

Then there's me of course Spencer carlin the one who people think they know oh so well and understand but really Ashley's the only one who does she can tell when I'm sad even when I have the biggest smile on my face she can always tell what I'm thinking it's almost like wed be perfect together but I'm just the best friend key word here being "friend" and I have to keep reminding myself of that everyday I see her and boy does it hurt. I was always I was always the student with the perfect grades that every girl wanted to be and every guy wanted to have ok that's a bit vain but it's the truth and I had never even questioned or thought twice about my sexuality but that all changed when Ashley Davies decided to be best friends with me and change my life in so many ways I didn't think where possible.