Chapter 1
"And I wonder how long it will take them to notice that I'm gone…
And I wonder how far it will take mo to runaway!
I was just trying to be myself, have it your way I'll meet you in hell
Its all these secrets that I shouldn't tell, I've got to runaway...
It's hypocritical of you, do as you say not as you do
I'll never be your perfect girl... I got to runaway". Bella made her way through the forest outside her house, not knowing where she was heading, just away from the little town which held so many agonisingly painful memories. She was singing "Runaway" by Pink. The lyrics seemed to suit her predicament perfectly. Edward had left her: her world, her one true love- gone. "It'll be as if I never existed." His words rang through her numb skull over and over again. It had been six long, gruelling months since the Cullen family had left. Charlie, her dad, had said to her a couple of months after the Cullen's departure that it was like she was on auto pilot. She went to school and thought about Edward. She went to work, and thought about "Him". In her dreams she saw his porcelain skin, hard as rock, yet smooth as marble. She saw his bronze tussled hair and his liquid amber eyes, the same eyes that had once stared into her mortal ones. A vision of perfection each night. A vision of perfection that when awake she would never hear, or see of again. This was her continuing nightmare. She awoke each night, screaming, always hoping Charlie was in a deep enough sleep for him not to hear her torture. She never would escape "His" clutches. She had to leave Forks and be free of everything that ever reminded her of him, even if it did mean leaving Charlie. She packed her bag, and waited till Charlie was asleep. She crept silently into his room and left a note by his bedside table saying;
Charlie,
I cant live here anymore, you more than
Anyone knows how hard this is for me, and I can't take it anymore.
I will be back when my mind is free from him. I love you.
Bella
Xxx
She had been walking for about an hour when she decided to take a rest on a boulder; after all she was only human. She planted herself down and a sudden thought erupted from the back of her mind. "Feels like Edward…oh god…I really am loosing it…" A small tear began to run down her face. More and more began to flood her cheeks forming into a puddle at her feet. She hated him for doing this to her. How could he leave her? How could he make her feel this way? "Stop this Bella! For your own peace of mind. Drop it", she told herself. "Oh no I'm even talking to myself now, what next!" She attempted to pull herself together and began walking in a direction she didn't know, just wherever her feet took her and put in her ear phones, listening to Decode. "Argghh, stupid rock..." She was now lying face down in a pile of what she hoped was mud; clumsily she'd fallen over a tiny rock. "Only I would have ended up with a mouth full of mud from that!" she murmured as she began to pull herself up off the ground. A sharp pain was shooting up her thigh. "Jeez…pulled a muscle…Ohhhh, I hate forests!!" She sat there, trying to figure out how she could move without hurting her leg any more. "I'll drag myself…where's a bloody vampire when you need one!" She was still considering her options when she heard what seemed like some one running. It was getting closer and closer. "Edward?" she called out. Don't be stupid Bella...He doesn't want you. He doesn't love you. Suddenly she remembered - Victoria. She was coming after Bella for revenge – maybe she was here already. The running got closer and closer. "I can't run... and I can't fend off a ravenous vampire that wants to kill me. You'll be free Bella...From Him...Forever…no more pain…no more nightmares…free. – "Yes..." She closed her eyes and waited for the ravenous red head to claim her prize…Bella's life. She welcomed death as a way out of her torture.
"Bella?"