Yearning

By: Liv-x-Case-Benson & dcmasters

Ch. 1: Steps

They'd got off to a slow start, but once they had finally confessed their true feelings for one another the relationship had gone from strength to strength. Both Olivia and Casey were blissfully happy, and their connection was so strong. They'd told their bosses after four months, followed quickly by their colleagues and everyone had been really supportive, despite Casey's doubts about people at the DA's office.

Now, a year into their relationship, the bond the couple shared could not be broken. Both women respected the other's right to deal with things on their own, knowing they would share their problem eventually, though this usually only took a few days.

Now, Casey had seemed distracted for more than a week and as she slowly stirred one morning, she saw Olivia staring down at her. "Liv? Has something happened?" she croaked.

Olivia smiled, kissing her cheek. "I was just wondering what's been on your mind lately."

Casey sighed softly. "I just... I don't want you to think I'm pushing you..."

Olivia sat up. "Pushing me? About what?"

"I... Everywhere I go there are babies... and it's making me really want one with you..."

"A baby? Really? Huh."

Casey looked away. "I knew I shouldn't have said anything."

Olivia placed a hand over Casey's. "I...I didn't say no. It's just..."

Casey looked back at her. "Just what?"

"I don't know if I want to share you yet. I mean, we haven't been together for very long."

Casey smiled. "I know. It's just all I can think about. It's eating at me. I'm sorry."

Olivia hugged her tightly. "Honey, if this is really what you want. Right now. I'm with you."

"Are you sure? I know it's a big deal."

Olivia sighed. "I know, but I'm not 20-something, or even 30-something anymore. I love you and I want to make you happy. Besides, I always wondered if Mommy Benson would be a reality or not."

Casey's smiled turned into a grin, pulling Olivia close, kissing her. "I love you, Liv."

"I love you too. Can we just lay here for a bit?"

"Sure," Casey smiled, cuddling unto Olivia's side.

Smiling, Olivia crawled back under the covers, holding her close. "It's a big step."

"I know. There's nobody else I want to take that step with."

"Good," she said with another smile. "It's going to be a bit for me to take in at first."

"It's ok. We can do this at whatever pace you want."

Olivia ran a hand over her face. "It's just sometimes, with this job, well...it doesn't go as planned."

"I know what your job is like sweetheart. I'd love to carry a baby for us, but if you want to as well then we can work something out."

The detective shook her head. "I want you to."

Casey smiled. "I really love you. Can we stay here all day?"

"We can try."

Casey kissed Olivia passionately as Olivia's phone rang.

Olivia groaned, answering. "Benson?"

"Hey, it's Elliot. We need you. Missing mother and newborn."

Olivia sighed. "I'll be right there," she said, hanging up.

"Spoke too soon?" Casey asked, kissing her deeply. "If you're going in, drop me at my office?"

Olivia nodded, dressing quickly.

Casey dressed, finishing her make up in the car. "Text or call if it's going to take all night."

"I will."

"I love you. Stay safe, always."

"I love you too."

The case took days, and used to an empty bed at night, left Casey plenty of time to daydream and look into their options, seeming the happiest she'd been in a long time. They finally found the mother and baby on Friday evening, and when the mother was threatening to jump, Olivia managed to pull the baby to safety as Elliot grabbed the mother. The baby now stared up, wide-eyed, at Olivia.

Olivia smiled, holding him close. "Well, aren't you just the cutest little boy?"

He nestled his head against Olivia and Elliot smiled. "Suits you."

Olivia nodded, smiling. "He needs to be checked out."

"The EMT's are waiting. You can ride with him if you want. Hey, Liv, you and Novak ever thought about kids?"

Olivia nodded, pressing a finger to her lips. "Later," she said, getting in the ambulance.

Elliot nodded, following the ambulance to the hospital, waiting outside until Olivia had said goodbye to the little boy. "Come on, I'll drive you home."

Olivia nodded. "You know, it's funny. We were discussing that before you called."

"Really? Well you both make great parents. You were really good with him."

Olivia smiled. "Thanks. We're looking into options now, but, for the moment, I don't want everyone to know."

"Don't worry, your secret's safe. If you need anything, just ask."

"All right," she said as they drove away.

By the time Olivia had got home, the attorney had fallen asleep on the sofa, laptop still open on her lap displaying various information sheets of options for their pregnancy.

Olivia set the laptop on the coffee table, curling up against her and pulling a blanket over them.

"Liv?" she mumbled, snuggling against her.

Olivia kissed her neck. "Yes."

Casey moaned softly. "I missed you," she whispered.

"I missed you too," the detective said. "How've you been?"

"Happy, but happier now you're home.

Olivia pulled Casey closer.

"I love you, Benson."

"I love you too, Novak."

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