The only one who gets me
Yeah, you get me
It's amazing to me
How every day
Every day, every day
You save my life
"prim!" I hear myself shouting- no screaming her name. "RUN PRIM RUN!" no matter how loud I scream she doesn't seem to hear me, her long blonde braids bouncing against her back as she tries to save the children in the capitol. That's when it happens the bombs go off, I see her catch fire. I'm running toward her, but not running fast enough. I feel the heat burning against my skin, but the fire is barely effecting me. "KATNISS! KATNISS HELP!" prim's voice is filled with panic and fear.. Just like how I remember rues that day in the games.. Ashes filling my throat making it impossible to breathe causing me to fall down beside my little sisters body begging her to stay with me.. Until I realize it's done. She's gone and she's not coming back, that's when the impact of the flames hit me.. Burning terrible burning that's all I feel.
I wake up screaming and my head in hands.. I know peetas sleeping and I should keep it down but no matter how hard I try I still find myself screaming louder and louder. "KAT? Katniss?! Katniss what's wrong?" peetas voice finds its way through my horrid high pitched screaming, I feel his arms embrace me pulling me in close. I eventually stop screaming, "not real Katniss.. It's not real" peeta runs his fingers through my hair unraveling my braid. His hands find their way down my back, this is how he calms me down now. "Kat? Do.. Do you want to talk about it?" he says, turning me around to face him, I shake my head burying my face in his chest. "you know it helps when you talk about it" his hands cup my face and make our eyes meet, I let out a long shaky sigh and begin to tell him about the horrors that have happened tonight.
"prim.. We were in the Capitol again, and I- I tried peeta I did! I tried to save her but t- the bombs... They got her before I could" before I know it I'm crying hysterically, and I hate myself for sounding so weak and vulnerable. I eventually catch my breath and mumble out "I miss them peeta. All of them. Prim, cinna, finnick, rue. I miss them so much"
"Katniss-" he lets out a long sigh before continuing "I know you miss them, I miss them too. We're going through this together remember? I'll always be here, you'll always have me" his hands stroke my back, it feels so soft and comforting and I don't want him to ever stop. And luckily he doesn't.
The sun hits my eyes through the blinds of my bedroom window, the last thing I remember was me having a nightmare and peeta being there too comfort me, just like he always has. I hate myself for crying like that in front of him and depending on his strong arms to guard me away the horrors that the night carries along with its darkness. I sit up and rub my eyes and take a deep breath, a familiar smell runs through my nostrils.. Cheese buns I think too myself. Peeta must have made them when I was asleep and went to the bakery, I stand up and walk into my bathroom. Peeta basically lives here now, the right side of the bathroom is his half and the left side is mine just like my bed is. I look at myself in the mirror, I'm absolutely mortified by the person staring back at me. It doesn't even resemble me at all, the girl that was once as radiant as the sun is gone. I have dark circles under my eyes from many sleepless nights and look about twice my actual age. I let out a sigh and rebraid my hair and make my way down the steps of my house.. I hate thinking that. My house, it's no longer My family's house it's just my hollow lonely house filled with nothing but memories.