Memories - Old and new
Sonny turned his key and opened the door to his apartment.
For a few hours this was their place, not his but their apartment.
Sonny sighed and closed the door behind him. Will's things were gone and it was almost like he was never there. Almost. Except for the memories in his head.
The bed, where they made love, many nights spend in utter happiness. Or so he thought.
The night stand with the tin, where Will had looked so loved when he discovered Sonny's resolution from a year ago.
The foot of his bed, where Will sat when he told him how he liked to dress up for Halloween, to not be himself for once. Because he never felt like he belonged anywhere growing up, always going from one house to another.
Suddenly it all started to make sense to him. Why Will would let Nick and Gabi have their way.
To let everyone think the baby was Nicks. The happy home, a single place to belong, the one thing he wanted growing up, but never got.
He did had it once. With him.
Sonny could not make up his mind. Was he mad at Will for betraying him, betraying his trust?
Did he feel bad for Will going through this alone?
Was he angry at Gabi and Nick for treating his Will this way?
'His' Will? Did he still want Will to be his?
"I'm losing my mind", he said to himself.
Sonny turned on the shower to wash away his worries. No such luck.