All my life I've felt misunderstood, like no one understands me, not even my family or my closet of friends. I've never been able of fit in, no matter how hard I try. I find it hard to grasp reality and when I finally do it gets taken away from me. I have never been able to open to people and trust them with my secrets. They don't seem to notice me anymore, it's like I don't exist and sometimes I wish I didn't . I wonder how they'd react, would they scream and cry or would they be happy that they got rid of me?
When my parents took me out of school last year, everything changed and when I got back, I couldn't seem to keep up. A new girl, Nina, arrived from America and took my spot. The minute I met her I felt threatened, she seemed to have it all, the looks, the personality and the thing I wanted the most, my childhood crush and best friend, Fabian Rutter.
I know that writing the article was a bit over the top but I couldn't help it, I don't know what came over me. I wish I could take it all back but I can't and now I have to face the consequences, all my 'friends' have left me and took her side. So I came to a conclusion.
I walked into the girl's bathroom; I was trying to get this over and done with fast so I forgot to lock the door. I swiftly took the bottle of pills out of my RipCurl backpack and took off the lid. I poured them out onto the palm of my hand and just as I was about to empty them into my mouth, the door swung open.
"Joy, please don't do it" the American accent begged
"Why would you care? It would make your life a lot easier without me in the way"
"Why would you think that" she replied, rushing towards me
"Because of everything I've to you and I don't think sorry would make up for that"
After a long silence, she spoke up "I forgive you"
"What?" I asked shocked
"I forgive you" she repeated
"After everything I've done?"
"After everything you've done" she repeated
"Friends?" I asked hopeful
"Friends" she confirmed. We both laughed before we both looked at my hand. I then poured the pills back into the bottle and then threw the bottle into the bin.
She held out her elbow and we linked arms leaving the bathroom.
I think now, I have finally faced all my 'demons' and I've become a whole new me. More confident, more open and more free to experience life. And this is all down to my new best friend, Nina Martin, the one who I felt most threatened by at the first.
- tvdxobssessed :)